1:21 AM

is the current starting time of this post. Lets see how long it takes me to make a short entry. (i plan on this being a short entry so lets see if i can stick to my plans.) Anyways Iris came on msn these past few days so i've been talking 2 her a lot catching up on new and old stuff that we've missed. I told her the epic story of of my co worker and the awkwardness that is him. So.... i've been telling everyone how, when we were just friends i thought he was an okay pretty average guy. But after discovering his TRUE intentions, i have found myself paying close attention to the little things about him that annoy me. (once again this could have to do w/ my standards being to high...but we'll see) So, i think i've mentioned all of his young niave annoying traits that just make me want to punch him in the face. But today i found another one. So on sunday my boss put up the new schedule and i seen that he re-hired our old bus girl. (the same bus girl that he used to have a super crush on.) So i was like *oh this is great, maybe she'll take some of the pressure off me!* ....or so i thought. i was talking to him on msn today and i asked him if he knew who was bussing next week and he said yes he did. I then did my famous OHhohoho laugh, and he said. so, it doenst make a difference. and i was like (...uh oh) so i asked. *dont you like her anymore?* and he said. *No.* ....that was it. I was a little bit shocked, but at the same time i was expecting it. I told him it was pretty sad that he can suddenly stop liking a girl so quickly. Its like no faithfulness at all. I said to myself before he answered my question 'if he says no, them i'm absolutely positive that hes not my type.' low and behold he said no. I guess i'm kind of contradicting myself here with my 'standards' but really though. I dont really see how you can so easily brush someone off, especially considering that he was crazy about her when he first saw her. Like....i guess comparing my co worker and me, to Roni and Henry.... i'd have to give Henry props for continuing to chase R for like....2 years. Even though he knew that she didn't really like him, he still tried to change her mind. Like my co worker on the other hand is like...yes is yes, no is no.....maybe i should tell him no.... I dunno theres a word i'm trying 2 think of that he doesn't have. I guess like....its easy to give up on like...an exam or something physical like that. But... liking someone i think is different. I guess if i was a guy and i found out a girl i liked didnt like me i wouldn't just give up and call it quits. I'd see it as a challenge...as a hunt for the beautiful mayflower of love. (recognize that anyone? hahah) But so yeah. i've heard about a lot of couples hooking up after like...years of the guy chasing the girl and the girl suddenly realizing how devoted he is to her and decides to give him a chance. He told me that *its just a crush* and i thought that was bullshit. I've had crushes before and i never stopped liking someone just suddenly out of the blue because my chances seemed low. Pretty pathetic. So yeah, this is some words of advice from someone who probably shouldn't be offering advice.... But seriously, girls do pay attention to small stuff like that. It doesn't seem very man-ly to give up so easily on a girl that you were 'crazy about'. Because honestly if you really were crazy for her i think you'd be willing to try a lot harder to get her to like you back
....my friend, at the rate your going, your list of cons will soon turn into a dictionary of 'why i do not like you' ....sorry man.

Planning for Animethon 14....

So...while slacking off today i was looking up pictures of cosplayers from Animethon 13. And then i started thinking of people that i could be. And so yeah, i'm going to write out a small list of possibilities. Oh yaaah. i still have like unfinished Miwako costume in my closet...maybe i should consider that too.... And to think that i paid money for a wig and never used it....maybe halloween. But anyways. So far I've thought of being these characters.
-Dante from Devil May Cry 3. (might have to do something about that bare man chest he shows though....
-Hayate from Naruto. (even though hes dead i thought he was pretty cool)
-Temari from Naruto. (aside from Anna this is actually the first girl that i've wanted to cosplay as. Both of her costumes are pretty neat so we'll see)
-Dark from DNAngel. (because nobody can resist a swashbuckling thief)
-Michael from Angel Sanctuary (I like Michael...besides i'm the perfect height...which is short)
-Tifa from FF7 Advant Children (this one is really just because i like Tifa and the costumes ive seen so far didn't do her justice....)
-Livio from Trigun Maximum (i just added this on sept. 12 because after my 9th time reading vol. 9, i have come to the conclusion that Livio the Double Fang is awesome. His costume prolly isn't that hard either. Its actually really simple. Pretty much exactly the same as Wolfwoods plus white hair and better accessories. I just have to keep an eye out for a good skull mask during halloween)

Does anyone worry/wonder that i seem to like cosplaying as men most the time..... Maybe its just cuz girl costumes aren't as neat. Also could have to do w/ the fact that i think i can make myself look more handsome than i can pretty. haw haw haw. So yeah. As of right NOW i'm thinking Temari or Dark. Just because their costumes would probably be the easiest to make but if you add the right accessories it can look really really good. Dante and Hayate's costumes look kinda hard. I'd assume material for a long red Trenchcoat would be pretty expensive, not to mention i'd have to make good props. I'd mainly do Dante so that i could dye my hair white and do his face. Pretty much the same thought for Hayate. I wouldn't look forward to making the vest (so many pockets!!!) But i'd want to do his face. (so many cosplayers i've seen do such a good job on costumes but the make up/hair is really really bad.) Michael is probably just a thought because he is cool. I would have to cut my hair supah short and i dont know if i could draw the tattoo on myself. We'll see about Tifa, I'd have most problems w/ the shoes i'd think.
But yah, thats the main theme behind this entry. Hahah i'm a loser. I dont know what i want to be for halloween this year though...we'll see.

Oh Wolfwood.....

I Just finished reading volume 9 of Trigun Maximum. I'll have to say that so far it is my absolute favorite volume, even considering that vash isn't in it. But its really good. If i remember correctly i think wolfwoods outcome is the same in the manga as it is in the anime. And after reading 9, like 6 times in 3 days it will make me really really miss him, because he is such a strong and loyal guy, whos not willing to give up. (quite the opposite of my workmate if you noticed....) So anyways, this picture is dedicated to you super good looking Wolfwood. hohoh i drew it several months ago. I was too lazy to edit out all the sketchings and stuff. I never actually drew Wolfwood before so i didn't know how to draw his hair, so i had to do some practises.
Oh woe is me. I wonder what will happen to you in the end.......

i'm back and a thousand dollars richer.

Hello everyone, this is a picture of my cousin alex and what i did to him the first day i went back to fort mcmurray. It makes me laugh evertime i see it. Alex is my favorite little cousin. Hoh hoh.
Soo... i forget if i've said anything these past few blogs, but i've discovered recently that i have an admirerer. I always thought i'd be extremely happy to have one, but as i have discovered.... sometimes its not that great. Sooo. i just found out a few days before i went back to fort mac that some one likes me (which is extremely rare) and i was like *ooh i dont know what to do because i'm not sure what i think about him* and then i was like. *well i guess i can go back to fort mac and sort out my feelings* and that is exactly what i did. I discovered that i do not feel the same way about him. i tried to make a list of pro's and con's and there were a LOT of cons.... i feel kinda bad but its true. like as a friend i like him, but thats all really. From what i know of him hes not really 'my type'. And then it started to annoy me that he would text msg me everyday w/ the most mundane information. It got really annoying. and the fact that i avoided going on msn truly makes me believe that i dont really like him that way. He got me something from calgary and i didn't know what to expect or do when i received it. (it was a panda plushy). And then today i seen a picture of 2 of those panda plushies hugging each other on the BG of his cell. eeeyaaaa. I think that one of the main reasons that i wont think of him as more than just a friend is the fact that hes not very mature. I think i'm more mature than he is and i'm very immature. Plus.... I dunno its also the little details i pick up at work. Like how he'll tell someone the mean things that people say about them for no reason whatsoever and that starts building grudges. and he also asks for certain people to get fired and stuff. Just small stuff like that that i pick up on. And also when me and him and 2 of my workmates young kids were playing GC he seemed to take it really really seriously. like serious button jamming win win situations because you know how important it is to beat two 12 year old kids right?. ERG i dunno its all this is just making me really frustrated right now. If i could ask for one thing for my boyfriend to have it would be to be able to stand by myside and back me up if i ever needed his help, and i just dont see him doing that. ARG.
But really, change in direction here because thats really angering me. So...school starts in 2 days....*sob sob* i hate school. i'm gong to be taking 5 classes this year.... this actually going to be the 1st time i've had 5 courses in one semester since 1st year when i dropped psych. hoy we'll see how that goes. i'm also going to experiment w/ the not buying of a bus pass for september to see if i can time manage better. But yeah so thats all the plans that i have for now. Oh. i just finished reading TRIGUN vol. 9 I actually really like that one. Even though vash wasn't in it, it was pretty good. I read it at least twice so far. Yum yum. Welp, thats all for now folks.

would you like some buttermelon

translated to english that would be equivalent to 'would you like some avocado'. hohoho. But anyways. small post today. Just wanna comment on fort mcmurrays male population. Theres not that many good looking young guys around my age here is there? BUT however, when one does appear, they sure are cute. Tee hee. I seen a guy come in yesterday who looked like jacob hoggarth from hedley. He was cute. and i caught him secretly looking at me. MWA MWA. hahaha.
Today i went and got my very first filling. I was super nervous and it took like....10 mintues. They put this giant purple rubber tarp-like mask over my mouth and i sat w/ it on for a good 5 mintues waiting for the doctor to come in. Then after my mouth was numb till 8PM. I think i was drooling for a good 10 mintues before i realized. hahaha. Numb mouth is funny. Welp i'm supah tired so i'm gonna go sleep now. chow.
PS. i have made it my next mission to forget about 'you know who'. ADD OIL!!!!

Um, hey everybody....

So yeah....if anyone read the post from yesterday i was debating whether or not my workmate liked me or not. I said that i *thought* maybe he did, but that i also could have been wrong because hes just an overall nice friendly guy. Well, its funny how somethings reveal themselves really quickly. I left back for fort mac today, and he knew that i was leaving today. At 9AM while i was still sleeping i recieved a text msg from him (undoubtedly on his way to work) that read as follows:
"Well see you in like 10 days. Unless you come to eat, then i'll see you in a few hours. I'm gonna miss you."
Dwear Mne....uuuuuung That last sentence i think pretty much answered my question of uncertainty. ung ung. So now i dont know what to do. Because like i said before i dont know...er rather i know i dont feel the same way about him. At least of my own free will. Like i'll find myself thinking of him sometimes, but its more thinking *if i like him that way*. And personally, if you have to think about that, i think you should know the answer. But like.... uuuuug i dunno either if like....maybe i set my standards to high or something. Like. i dunno when i notice a good looking guy i usually say like *oh he has nice eyes, or his arms are nice, or his smile is cute* and thats like....physical stuff. But i find sometimes i start liking someone i've known for a long time after i've gotten to know their personality. Uggggh. I'm really confused right now. I was going to use this entry to try and clarify some of my feelings right now. But i'm talking to Jess about Craig (something i've never done before) and its bringing back some painful memories again.... i'll try this again some other time.

in a fairy tale world

Is it weird that this past month i've been having a more than usual amount of dreams and daydreams of craig? More so daydreams, but a few dreams here and there. But more so daydreams and thoughts. Like i keep on imagining what would happen if he came in to kyoto one day. (this is all assuming that i'd recognize him, even though i've only seen like....old old old pictures of him) But i keep on thinking about....about what i'd do if i ever bumped into him. And like i'd hope he'd recognize me but i'm not sure. So like. today i was thinking if he really came in to eat, if i'd have enough guts to walk up to him and talk to him. And if i did what the hell would i say to him. *hi are you craig? i'm corinna you've ruined 2 years of my life?* No i'd probably not. i'd proably try to ease in and find out if it really was him. *did you used to live in fort mcmurray?* But at the same time if he said *yes i did* i dont know what i'd do after. I dont know if i'd be too overwhelmed to say anything or if i'd start like getting all teary eyed. (i'm sure the latter is not possible). And then, theres also the possibility that i might be too scared/nervous to walk up and talk to him. And if that were the case and he left w/o me saying a single word of recognition to him....i think i might really cry. That after like....2 years of waiting to meet you and i finally do, but before i get the chance to talk to you i let you walk out....that would be really crushing. So yeah, its kind of like a lose lose situation. But i guess i should also consider that he doens't live in edmonton anymore...or alberta....or possibly canada....
But, speaking along the line of guys. Another little dilema i've got going on. (always happens around the end of summer) So.... i have a workmate at work, who i'm not sure if he likes me or something. Like i'm usually pretty good at that kind of stuf....or actually no i'm not. But i can't tell. So.... my workmate he keeps asked me to go to calgary to watch the fireworks competition w/ him. and like, no biggie there cuz he asked all the workmates. But, i dunno if this makes a difference or not but, i told him that i wasn't going to go cuz i didn't have the money 2 do that. And he said *i'll pay for you*. I feel pretty stupid because maybe i'm just thinking one sided here and that, thats what any normal friend would do, and that i'm thinking way to hard. But, he also constantly asks me to go out and have ice cream, and watch movies and go clubbing. and same w/ the *i'll pay for you* bit..... so yeah i'm not sure. Just thought i'd voice that little tid bit.

Paper Dress Princess

Konnichiwa! Hohoho, since i have recently discovered that i can now easily post pictures in my entries, i will try to post pictures of random stuff i take more often. (That will also entice me to take pictures of more stuff)
So.... the picture on the left is of my current project in the drawing class i'm taking. The assignment was to make a garment/accessory/ wearable object out of unconventional materials. The first thing i thought of was *project runway* because i had just recently finished watching the 2nd season. hohoh. So obviously i chose a dress (actually i was thinking of purse or shoe, too) but i chose a dress, and the material was paper. If i had time and money i would have made a pretty hat or purse out of rose petals, or a pair of fancy shoes out of wax. The latter would have been my next choice i believe. But yeah so the dress turned out like that. I guess i'm pretty proud of it. It should be wearable, just that i need a supah skinny model since i cinched the dressform to practically the smallest size it would go, and then i tapered the waist of the dress even smaller. E-hehehe. So yeah i guess it turned out okay, i'm unsure right now whether or not its completely finished. I wanted 2 change the color of the obi to something different cuz my instructor said it was kind of too eye catching. If i have time i'll do that.
Oh, so Kat's b-day is coming up. I got the invite again. I like going because i get to see some old friends from high school. It's like a mini reunion each year. Hohoho. I still have to get a present though. Dwear mne, i still am on the short stack of moo-lah. *sob sob* why oh why budgetting WHY!!!! Sooo yeah. I might go to WEM 2morrow. But its almost midnight so i should be going to bread. My eye hurts like a bee-yatch. Why? Because our showerhead sucks and the little rubber ring attatchment thingy keeps on slipping off so this high powered jet stream shoots out if you move it the wrong way. I was trying 2 fix it in the shower and when i moved the band it angled the water to shoot straight into my open eye. Hurt like a punch in the teeth.

Oh the nightmares....

This is Stewie. He currently resides face first in the corner of my brothers room because he scares me at night. I won him at klondike...sorry no Capital Ex. I was so happy when i won Brian the first day. I figured i absolutely had to go and get him a stewie companion....little did i know i'd get the equivalent of chucky in plush.
Aside from spending all my money at K-Days i'm saddened 2 say that nothing else has really happened. Thats important and that i can think of. Oh well... i bought a new pair of shoes! heheee my shoe fetish comes from my mom i swear. I've been wearing shoes w/ absolutley no support for the past few months and i think doing that has made my pinky toes numb.... so yah i dished out $95 bucks to buy these cute pair of white etnies mules. And after i did that i realized that i had no more money. Dammit. I totally forgot about rent and then now Kat's bday is coming up too so i have 2 get soemthing. and then... i have mangas that i want to buy (same ones from like 6 weeks ago btw). and possibly some new clothes so it doesn't look like i'm wearing the same thing 4 days in a row. Hoya... anyways i'm going to go outside and have some cereal. I've had like 6 bowls of it alreayd. hee hee haw haw.

Kakashi Sensei!!

This is Kakashi. He is currently residing in my bed..... *tee hee*

Alas cruel world.....

Sooo, my internet at home went down again. Maybe i should just start paying for it....hahah jkjk. Right now i'm just too lazy 2 walk home and i wanted 2 slack off a bit. I worked on friday, saturday and sunday. And i'll say that the friday and saturday were the exact opposite of each other.
Friday was a pretty good day, it was steady, not crazy hectic friday-busy. So that was good. And since i worked dinner rather than lunch i actually had time 2 get ready for work and look nice. Hahaha my workmates all asked me if i was going out on a date after work. (hey it was just some lipgloss) But apparently lipgloss makes a big difference because i made $30 tip on take out (i usually make 15-20$) And then i went 2 save on's where i bumped into iris. (actually i was on the otherside of jasper when i called her and right before my phone cut out she said *i'm at save on's*) so yeah i 'bumped' into her. Her and Ling came over for a small 'dinner' and after they left i started making corinna's special desserts for May's house warming party on sunday.
Saturday was an extremely crappy day. Wearing lipgloss really does make a difference cuz i never wore any that day. The first take out i took was horrible. The lady was a real snob, and i had 2 re-order certain stuff cuz 'you guys always screw up my order'. And then i undercharged her 10$. (this is the first time that has every happened 2 me before) i called her back and she made a big BIG deal about it saying stuff that i'm too lazy 2 type out. And eventually after like 10 mintues her husband told me that he'd come in to pay it back another day. And i was like sure okay, whatever. I beleive i will never see that 10$ i had 2 pay again. Then some lady made me make 8 cups of miso soup during the busiest time of the day. And then someone payed their 10.13 bill with 10$ and 1 galaxy cinema token. And i know she did it on purpose cuz she lifted up the bill and put the coin under it. AND THEN at like 8PM this lady walked up 2 me and in this cocky voice was lke *your ladies washroom is flooding really bad, i think 'you' should go fix it right away.* why yes right away i'll just pull the magical plunger that i keep in my pocket out and do it right away. Geez. So i went into the washroom and opened the door and stepped in a puddle. As iris said it looked like someone had lodged their shoe inside the toilet bowl. The water was overflowing like a mofo fountain. Also, since the water wasn't draining throught the drain in the floor it started....somehow seeping throught the wall and i guess since it had been flooding for like 10 mintues it soaked up a nice thick puddle in the dinning room. So sad.
Sunday wasn't so bad I just worked afternoon and then went 2 May's new place where i pretty much played mario party 4 for like....6 hours. hahah. Waluigi still rocks. Pretty funny cuz after like 3 hours of gaming, right as the game was announcing the winner the baby crawled over 2 the gamecube and pushed the power button. thats one dexterious baby. Weeelll. i think thats all i wanted 2 say.
....and to think i could have been home by now had i not come here 2 write this blog.

A-HOY

Hi Everybody!! Super excited cuz my internet is working. ohohoho. Anyhoo heres pictures of me from this years anime convention. In case anyone forgot.... (or doesn't recognize) i'm kakashi when he was an ANBU....

Minus the fact that i forgot about his shoes and therefore had to make them 20 mintues before leaving i was pretty happy w/ my costume. I got a lot of comments and my props turned out quite nicely. I made the mask and kunai knife pretty much from scratch (weeell, i used a basic halloween mask as a base) I was a little bit sad because on saturday i wore my contacts in the wrong eyes and put the scar on the wrong eye too... damn you mirrors. hahaha. But aside from those 2 problems everything else was good. yum yum. It actually doesn't look as good as i remembered it.... But yeah. I forgot to take pictures of tara's costumes. Possibly had to do w/ the fact that i didn't take any pictures at the animethon at ALL.... come on people wheres your creative juices? I actually want to say that i didn't buy that much stuff. First day i spent under $100. Basically all the stuff that i wanted 2 buy wasn't there. So on the 2nd day, after feeling really left out from not buying stuff i went around and bought random stuff that i semi-wanted. ie. many kakashi items. hahah i bought a big plushie and the little one that i was gunning down on ebay, like 4 keychains, and then some artbooks. So all in all it wasn't really that much. No 10 bags like a few years ago. hahah. anyhoo i should prolly go to sleep now... which i wont.

o-HI-yo

yo dawgs. hoho i'm here at the U mooching free internet access. isnt it great? Main reason for this entry is to comment on animethon...13 i believe. It wasn't really that great i thought. not that many super great costumes....actually there weren't that many costumes period. Gosh everybody wheres you anime spirit? The only one that really stuck out as good was that one guy dressed up as Jirara.... and i'm sure i've spelt that wrong. And of course my costume. Hohoho. seriously i got a lot of comments on it i'm so proud. hee hee. especially since, i made everything, with the exception of the pants.... But yah, i was really worried it wasn't going to look good since i didn't actually put everything on w/ makeup/hair until the actual day.. But yah super happy. hahaha. Um... not that much stuff in the dealers room although there seemed to be a lot more dealers. The only reason i spent over $100 is mainly cuz i bought plushies which i wouldn't actaully bought cept that i was feeling a bit sad cuz i didn't buy that much. hahah. aside from a few manga i bought the naruto art book, and the angel sanctuary art book wich i was quite shocked at how inexpensive it was. hohoh deals deals deals. Yuppers. i was also a little upset because i didn't enter the cosplay contest. The worker man at comic king told me my costume was the best one he'd seen all weekend. i was berry berry proud. (PS my friend 'tyreese' won the cosplay contest and i guess i didn't think her costume was that great so i was a bit sad) but ah well what can you do. I might be famous on the internet if you look up ANBU Kakashi from animethon 13. hohohoho. Anyhoo gonna go now. later everyboby.

oh joy

i have access to internet again! man its been an extremely long time. going to be extremely quick. Just some basic recap seeing how as nothing itneresting has happened really. Finished spring classes and have been on break. My parents came in last week. I was actually pretty excited to see them. Hohum. Animethon is in 2 days. Kinda excited. But doesn't think she will go. oh poo-pee. Ling will go and so will Tara, parchance i can dupe jessicaw to come. oh hohoho. Um um. what else. Oh right i think i mentioned a long time ago that i' going to be kakashi from naruto. I dunno how it looks right now cuz i dont have the hair and stuff....but i hope i look okay. Otherwise i will also not go. hahah. I'm so proud of the knife prop that i made. hohoho. Anyhoo, thats all for now. I am broke and trying 2 save moolah so i will go now. Byee bye...

only wishing....

oOh yah, so my internet has been down for the longest time, so here i am using my brothers cpu to type out my blog. Soooo....since i no longer have the opportunity to write random brain thoughts at the wee hours in the morning, i'm stuck w/ writting a blog entry everytime something important happens.
Today, (as the heading for this entry indicates) something out of the ordinary happened. or so i feel. Weeeell, i didn't have 2 work this morning so i was up and about doing stuff...watching tv. And then i went 2 take a nap before going to work. Where... oh wow, it does kinda hurt... i basically had a dream. My dreams are always random stupid things, that never make sense, and have absolutley nothing to do w/ my life. But today this dream was kinda truthful...yet false. So... today i dreamt...(deep breath) that craig had found me again. Well not actually, but on msn. And i didn't know who he was at first because he was using a different name, but he eventually changed it back to craig. And when i found out, i basically just sat at my cpu desk and started crying because i was so happy, and so sad. He told me that he had moved to Ontario or something for the past 2 years, and that he had just moved back to Edmonton (whyte ave to be more exact) and, just like always we hit it off really really well. But in my dream i was also getting ready to go to work. So after like 20 mintues i told him i had to go to work. And he was like *okay i'll talk to you later....* and then i woke up. And at first i was all like drowsy and pretty happy because it was a pretty nice dream. But then i remembered that it was only a dream and those last words he said before i woke up. And.... so i felt pretty sad, because well first it WAS only a dream, and second he lied. *ow* man that really hurts. So then i went to work, were the first customer who came in bore a stiking resemblence to craig. And then a guy called in to make a reservation on friday for 'craig' and while i was reading the paper i found an article written by 'craig elliot'. (a while back ago when i didn't have this blog, and used to write in a diary, craig's 'code name' was elliot.) Really really strange.

woo almost didn't make it

theoretically speaking....my i-net seemed to almost crash... but i got to this page so here comes my attempt at making some more entries. Sooo, i finished my artH calss and got my mark back... %80..pooh... well my average was a A- so i should be pretty happy...(pretty shitty though considering the U doesn't include spring/summer marks in my GPA...DAMMIT)
but aaany-hoo. So...apparently 'budgeting' is a lot harder to do when one has a lot of stuff they wish/need to purchase... pretty shitty. Fathers day (as i stated last post) is in 2 days, so i need to polish of the rest of my daddy's gift. Aside from that i'm going to have to dish out a big C-note in a few days for the rest of my NYpics and the rest of cathy's scrapbook (stupid i forgot to consider the rest of the photos' id have to get developed) ARG. I also want to get some new clothes (and those white&purple pumas....) : ( but sadly, i think i'm going to give up on the puma's. siiiigh. I only have like... 3 work shirts that i wear and 2 of them look almost identical so i'm sure that my servers think i'm a dirty diryt child. Welll, i want to say that cathy's scrapbook is coming along nicely... of course i only have like...10 of the 40+ pictures in right now, soooo i'm sure it'll be fine. My crafty projects usually turn out pretty good. Eeeem... oh oh animethons coming up in the beginning of july! (dont have 2 skip it for portfolio review in mid august like i did last year this time) Whoo-hooo. still hoping to go as Kakashi. If i get him all finished maybe i can finish my 3/4 done miwako costume too. hahah oh the shame.....
speaking of shame. Charles started talking to me on msn today. (charles is my former boyfriend mitchs' bestest friend in the whole world, who i was kinda maybe seeing before i hooked up w/ mitch....wow i'm a dumb kid....) But anyways, so yeah, low and behold he started talking to me in whats been like...8 months maybe? and he was saying crap like *ooh i was just thinkin of ya, and i missed ya, and i liked your booty*?!?!?! what the HELL is that. seriously i have absolutley no idea what man in their right mind would strike up a conversation w/ an old friend saying
*i missed you and your bum!* deserves a swift kick in the groin right there i'll tell ya... jerk....
but ANY-ways...i should go to sleep. I'm going to WEM 2morrow w/ the I-train and L-....bus.... and i ......oh Doooooh.. i just glimpsed up and seen my every so growing collection of manga remembering that the new volume of each series i have should be coming out soon (if not alreayd here) and also remembered all those other mangas i wanted 2 purchase, with the money that i dont have.... *sob sob* why cruel world WHY!!!

holy crustaceous barnacles

its almost been a month since i last posted??!?!! wow, that is quite shocking. Whats really shocking is that my computer hasn't been turned on in almost equally the same amount of time. Hooo-wee. Nothing of extreme importance has really happened that i'm dying to say so i'll just ramble on w/ some random thoughts that have happened since last post. Well, i'm saddened to say that i didn't make it into the BFA either. And although i didn't get as bummed out as i could have i really want to say that i must really really, REALLY suck a lot more than i thought i did. they replied back to me awfully quick. Man thinking about it right now is a bit depressing actually....
Aside from that everything ELSE has been pretty average. got 85% on my artH midterm (pretty proud of that) but i dont feel that confident about the exam seeing as how it seems nothing has seeped into my brain during lectures, and reading the text has done absolutely zilch. I thought yesterday was Fathers Day because my calendar had a missprint and said so. (stupid bootleg half price calendar....) i've been raking in $500+/ paycheck so i'm hoping i'll get enough moolah to pay for tuition by September. which according to my extremely brief budgeting i should do okay as long as i dont spend to much. (Which sadly i have already done yesterday, w/ my michael's/wal-mart/superstore trip) HAY i needed groceries and supplies to start on cathy's going away present. Oh and yeah Cathy's moving to vancouver come july. Sigh i'll prolly miss her. Last week me and her spent like....maybe 4 hours talking on the phone about when we were young. And i was actually pretty surprised because cathy had a pretty shitty childhood. Her mom was pretty much borderline abusive, and some of the stories she told me made me sersiously want to punch someone. I dont think her mom is a good mom at all. (maybe this sounds a little biased to you readers, but of the few stories that cathy told me, that was my impression) I kinda hinted at my past and that i was really depressed but when i tried to go deeper i choked up and couldn't do it.... sigh. one of these days i'll finally get it out.
Umm... last sunday i worked my first day as a server! hohoh it actually wasn't as bad as i remembered it being. I think i did pretty good, with the exception of during the last hour when i had a problem w/ the machine and my food got out before i had time to bring their drinks out.. haha oops. But other than that it went pretty good. I think i made at least 60$. (i say 'think' because i never got a chance to count my tips before dishing it out for dinner at furasato that same night w/ brian and jason.
i've been watching a lot of project runway recently (staying up till 2AM for it), and also i've been catching a lot of CSI too. (oh greg, tee hee). i was really excited on sunday because i thought sherry was coming back (working w/ wenna absolutely does not compare) but apparently i mistook june 11th, for JULY 11th.... sigh, one more month.
I'm looking forward to this friday because that'll be the start of my first snippit of 'summer vacation' till july 10th when summer class starts. OH BOY. I have a bunch of pent up energy that i'm going to expel on some unsuspecting man i meet at the first club i go to on saturday. hahah yeah right. I do have a lot of crafting energy though. I have to get started on cathy's scrapbook, and then after that i'm going to start working on my anbu costume. I think that aside from hair bleach, i'm all set for those 2 projects and shouldnt have to spend much more moolah. which is of course good for my 'budget'.
Oman, well i think that is all that i can remember for now. oh oh, cept ive been rollerblading a bit to try and get some more excercise, and on the way to the U couple weeks ago i did some major wipe-outs. i fell down 3 times, in 3 quite embarassing situations, all 3 times included a pedestian within close proximaty. The first time i flew across a lawn where this old man seen me and laughed, but he helped me up. The 2nd time i tripped while crossing the street and the 3rd time i flew down the highlevel bridge and took an inch of my shin guard. hahah i have then since stopped rollerblading for fear of my life. and that has been the life of corinna these past few weeks.

this is my gangster hat

when i wear it i become gangsta'. yo.
I dunno if its a good thing or a bad thing that i'm recovering so quickly from these bouts of depression. you figured its bad that one day i'm super good and then the next day i'm mashing my fists into a bloody pulp. (but not really) soo... my hand is feeling a lot better, though if i push certain spots it still hurts....obviously. but yeah. Anyways man thought for the day that i had. While in artH class today me and my friend michelle were talking and she told me that she was getting excited because she was getting married! Shes only 3 years older than me and i thought that was really exciting. Shes the first person/friend of mine that's around the same age as me and is getting married. Wow there was so many thoughts that went through my head when she said that. I mean she told me her and her fiance have been going out for like 6 years now and so i guess its about time. But it was still kinda shocking. I mean aside from katherine i dont think i know anyone else within my age range (give or take 10 years) who is in the jist of getting married anytime soon. And i guess i can't say that ppl are getting married younger these days, because my parents and older cousins all got married around 24ish too. So yeah. Its kinda funny/creepy because i said 2 my brothers last month, that a year from now i could be married if just tomorrow i happened 2 meet a guy and he happened to be my future husband.....So basically i dont know what the point i'm trying 2 get to.... Something along the lines of marriage and being young when it happens. I dunno, maybe because i hear so much about ppl getting married it seems so common, but when suddenly one of my friends gets married it sinks in that i could be that someone someday too....i mean, i think about like stupid things like wedding dresses and where i'd want to have my wedding and stuff, but i never really 'really' thought about what would happen if i ever got proposed to. Like, i always say how i'd want to get married so that i'd have someone to be with most of the time, but actually when i think about it deeper, it makes me kind of nervous.... woya, but yeah, apparently i'm missing an extremely important part of marriage which happens to be a man, so it looks like i wont be getting married anytime soon mates. And if i do i'm sure you'll be the first to know.....

bad week

this week really has been a pretty bad week actually. I haven't had one of these since highschool and my first year of university. My hand has bloated to almost twice its size and i think i broke some blood vessels, or whatever. I dunno if its better or worse that rather than screaming i now like to beat myself up. I was kinda hoping i'd hit something hard enough to break a few bones and then maybe somebody would feel bad. I dunno if maybe i was just being selfish or what. But i'll give you guys the low down. I had bought a bunch of cards a while back ago (because there was a special) to give 2 ppl for upcoming events. ie mothers day fathers day, when cathy leaves.... So there was like....5 cards in there. I was trying 2 find the mothers day card today so that i could get my dickjob brothers 2 sign them so i could mail out the card and the present when i finished buying all the stuff. And so i remember when i bought the cards that i had left them in the bag by the side of the sofa. But they weren't there when i went 2 look for them, so i looked elsewhere.... EVERYWHERE else. And i couldn't find them anywhere. So i started getting a little frustrated. And i asked my brothers and they said they never touched it. So i looked some more, for like 2 hours. And still nothing. So i started getting really frustrated, shouting out a *FUCK...mumblemumble* everyso often. And my 2 brothers did nothing, just sat and watched tv. So i kept on looking and i was OBVIOUSLY pissed off because they were sitting on their asses doing nothing, while i was looking for a pack of cards, more specifically the mothers day card so that THEY could sign it and take credit for a gift that they had absolutely nothing to do w/. Finally i got so angry that i yelled at them and said something like *I NEVER TOUCHED THOSE CARDS SO I SHOULD STILL BE ABLE TO FIND IT UNLESS YOU GUYS MOVED THEM* and they didn't move and i said *ITS NICE TO KNOW THAT YOU GUYS AREN'T GOING TO FUCKING HELP ME LOOK* and then terence (who btw is really REALLY pissing me off these few months) said *Well maybe if you picked up your 'garbage' once in a while we wouldn't throw it away* and i said *GARBAGE, IS YOUR FUCKING MOTHERS CARD CONSIDERED GARBAGE?!????* and by that time i was so angry that i started screaming and punching walls and floors like crazy. Good lord, when ever that happens to me (which hasn't been very recently) i get so angry and i have so much trouble breathing. Its times like that that i really scare myself because i really can't control what i do and i basically feel no pain.... which might be a good thing eventually.... but anyways so i went into my bathroom and cried a lot and hurt myself some more. And i was really really upset because i really wanted 2 talk 2 someone but i didn't know who i could call. I wanted to call jess but she changed her cell phone and i didn't know it off by heart yet. I guess its probably bad that i keep all this stuff inside me, but call it habit or something but i just can't voice it. I called my mom while i was in the bathroom and i think i really really really wanted 2 tell her how upset and sad i was feeling but i just couldn't get the words out. And whenever i got close my voice started to crack and....and then i'd just stop. What bothers me really the most i think is not just that i'm starting to turn back into my old pain inflicting, depressed self. But also the cause of it. When i was younger....i'm not sure what really depressed me, but one of the reasons i couldn't bring myself to really kill myself was that i was worried about all the loved ones who i'd make sad. Now though, its actually almost like those loved ones are the ones who are making me depressed. My two brothers are so distant it seems and even though we live in the same household, we dont carry on coversations like we used to and we're not even close to being as close as we used to. I dont live w/ my parents anymore and my aunts and uncles and cousins and grandparents rarely see me anymore anyways. So it really feels like nobody will really care if i'm gone because i wasn't there in the first place. Whenever my grandparents or uncles call out, they always ask for terence or felix. And kinda sorta same w/ my dad. Oh god i feel so left out of my family right now. And its like i dont really know anyone else i can talk to. Jessica rarely talks to me anymore as it is. And iris has her own family out here, and cathy is always with her boyfriend. So really i dont know what i should do.....It really really makes me sad that this blog is turning back to the depressing blog that it originally used to be

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Sometimes I think people dont realize how short life really is until its to late. But also at the same time I think that whoever decides when its time for someone to pass on, whether they be god, lord or spirit, has a cruel sense of humour. Several years ago my close cousin lost her dad to a heart attack the night before fathers day and which was also the night before his birthday. Just today i recieved a letter from a friend informing that her mother had also passed away, 4 days before mothers day. I feel a pang of saddness in my heart when i hear news like this because the people who've lost their loved ones had they had a few more days would have been able to share a wonderful hopefully love filled day w/ that person. But even having said this, isn't it sad how we take one...ONE day out of three hundred and sixty five days to show someone how much you appreciate them? When you think about it, how come everyday can't be mothers day, or fathers day, or valentines day or whatever stupid day that has been commercially created? If everyday you woke up and said 'i love you' to everyone you care about, then you wouldn't have to feel guilty if the next day they weren't there for you to say it to.... Humans are foolish creatures sometimes and i often dislike being one. I have the opportunity to live 100 years if i stayed healthy and active. When i'm young i'll complain that life is hard and complicated and i wish i was older so i didn't have to worry about the future. But in the future when i'm 50-60+ i'll complain that life is to short and i'll wish i was younger so i could do the things that i never got to do. Life really is ironic. Sometimes when i'm faced w/ choices and paths to choose, i'll think of that. People tell me that i do stupid things sometimes and waste money, but i guess maybe i'm thinking that they are certain things that i've always wanted to do and when i'm older i can have the chance to say that *yes i did that before* and *i've been there before*. Even though at this moment there aren't to many *daring* things that i've done....but if i ever get faced w/ the oportunity to then hopefully i'll remember what i've just said, and do what i say i'll do.

blasphemy

In case anyone ever wonders, the titles of these posts are often random words that just pop into my head when i can't think of anything to say (which is what i often do/say in real life). Any ways. I just want to re-comment on these past few days. I have to say that a days outcome really does depend on how you want it to turn out. On monday i had a really bad day. But actually i think it was only bad because i let it turn out that way. If i tried i probably could have made it less unfavorable by just not thinking about it so much and looking at the bright side. I say this because on Wednesday i had a pretty much equally as bad day. But rather than let it get to me i just chose not to think about how bad it was. Rather i thought of other stuff like how much worse it could have been and how thankful i was that the latter didn't happen instead. And really that wednesday turned out a lot better than i could have wanted it to. But yeah, that was all i really wanted to comment on. Mind over matter i guess...or soemthing like that.... ;P

been awhile

Today I cried. I haven't cried in a really long time and since i pretty much only cry when i'm depressed it meant today i was depressed. It was an extremely shitty day today. So many past memories came flooding back to me today in the rain. When i was walking 2 the bank I started thinking of how much my brothers were jerks. And how this problem could have been easily solved if he had just takin me back home (5 mintues away) so i could have gotten my cheques. But rather than that he didnt. So i wasted 45 minutes, which led to the closing of the bank before i could get there. I was so sad when i was walking there because those feelings of being uncared for started emerging again. I thought about running away again. But i didn't know where i could go. And like usually it was pretty much useless because no one really notices when i run away depressed and also i never have anyplace to go. I thought about going to Iris' but then i figured it'd be quite for her and my brothers wouldn't care if i went 2 iris'. So then i thought of cathy, but then i figured she was with her boyfriend and i didn't want to intrude. So i was left w/ going nowhere like usual but back home. GOD I FEEL SO USELESS. i have absolutely no idea where i'm going in life, and when something fails i just make up an excuse and chose a different path. I dont want to admit failure but at the same time i dont want to dissapoint my dad who puts so much faith in me. I hate myself because i always feel so uselss. eeeer i dont want to go back to being what i used to be because it was horrible and i hated always crying and not being able to sleep and hurting myself and lying to my family. I hope this little burst of depression goes away soon because I've already started to do the crying and hurting myself bit and its only been the first day.

horrible horrible

These past few days have been really really crappy. Man i haven't had shitty days like this in a long time. First, on saturday, right after work this dirty business suit wearing man bummed 7 bucks offa me. I dont know how the hell he did but that fucker is going to burn in hell. It seriously pisses me off when shitheads like that seriously dont need the money and yet they still get it. And like, at least the people who really REALLY need it, they ask you once and if you say no they POLITELY say thanks anyways and walk away. This jerk stood there for like 10 mintues while i was waiting for the green light asking me friggen 50 times. And then after i gave him 4 dollars he seen my 5 dollar bill and asked for that AS WELL. and i dont know what the hell possessed me cuz i actually gave it to him. and then i walked away pissed off. and then the more i thought about it the angrier i got. By the time i got home i was super pissed off so i punched the brick wall. And when i was in the elevator i was still angry so i punched the metal wall. I woke up that night and my knuckles were swollen. Stupid jerk. Then on Sunday it was uber slow and i was waiting for 4oclock 2 come so that i could start my countdown for hometime. And right at 4 30 the other hostess called in and asked me 2 work for her. I guess once again that was my own fault for saying yes but i'm just trying 2 get some more hours/moolah. So there went my sunday. Today was equally as crappy. stupid cirque de soleil tix. all in all we have 3 tix and technically enough for everybody who wants 2 go....but... ah fuck its also a long complicating story. And then my brothers were going 2 go 2 claireview to take care of some condo investing business. I tagged along cuz i wanted 2 go 2 Michaels, but it ended up being farther away than i thought and my brothers only needed a few minutes 2 sign some papers so i just stayed in the car. Then i asked my brother if i could go 2 the bank 2 deposit my cheques so that id have enough money 2 pay for my tuition tomorrow. And then i realize that i had fucking taken my cheques out earlier today 2 check how much money there was altogether. So my other brother went 2 the bank and i was getting uber pissed off. After they went 2 futureshop 2 exchange something and i was geting EXTREMELY pissed off at this time cuz he was taking so long. When i finally got home it was past 8 and i got my cheques and started walking in the rain 2 the bank. And obviously when i got there it was fucking CLOSED. But at this point in time i had already figured that it was going to be closed. And since i had already cried all the way there i figured it was useless to cry anymore so i went 2 save ons and bought useless junkfood.

once again due to the unreliability of my internet....

....here is another post from a previous day,
April 5th. Deedle dooo, I love working in public areas because i get to see pretty men... *tee hee* hahaha Aaaah especially the guy w/ the big smile, hes so cute. Hohoo. oh doh, there was something i wanted 2 write in here but i have forgotten.... Although i do remember that today a guy around in his late 20's early 30's came in and ordered to go, and he looked like an older version of mitch. I was extremely creeped out. Especially when he kept on staring deeply into the depths of my soul. And then also again when he asked for my name and when i gave it to him he asked me if it was my real name.... that spells c-r-e-e-p-y, my friends. Aaaaah I heart gentlemen. And i want 2 say that i like guys that are a few years older than me....dunno why but thats what i feel. OH OH i remember what i was going to say now. So, today i was sleeping and i dreamt that i was back in highschool and that i had slept in and my ride had come 2 pick me up. And when i was in highshool if i took to long my friend would knock on the door and since i'm a light sleeper i would hear it and automatically know that i had slept in. So I jolted up and rushed around getting ready. I finally got to school when the school bell rang. But in reality it was my real house phone and it woke me up. I was supposed 2 work lunch today and so i really actually was late.... sigh. I think that i subconsciously knew that i was supposed 2 work today hence why i dreamt that i was going to be late.... hahaha thats extremely weird. But i thought it was neat. Anyhoo i'm going to sleep now i'm uber tired.

oh garfunkle

Hello fellow prisonmates.
so how is everybody? (i say that expecting someone 2 actually reply) WELP i just finished organizing my portfolio for submission tomorrow.....*WISH ME LUCK* hoya, 3rd times the charm right??? (please please please let me in) Yeaaaah, i was looking at the portfolio i submitted last year and BOY did i submit some ugly stuff.... hahah no variety either. I would like to say that my portfolio this time looks pretty decent....althought i have no idea what their expectations are so i could be completely wrong.... uuugh and then comes the 2 month wait.... sob sob. But anyways i have another work related story to tell everyboby. (actually 2 now that i think about it)
#1. We hired a new hostess at work, and coincedentially she used to work at my families restaraunt in ft mac. She (as my brother says) doesn't have much if any common sense. For example, she put an order of wonton soup in one of those styrofoam boxes (the ones where liquid can slosh out the sides). and amongst other stuff. But it was like 2 years ago so i was like *aaah she was young, and ppl change* so i didn't mention anything to any of my workers. But apparently my workmates figured it out on their own.... haha jkjk....kinda. apparently i've been missing some interesting days at work when she hostesses... hahah i'm mean. I dont really want 2 indulge to deeply into this story cuz it can go on for a really long time.... so onto the next anecdote
#2. So whoever has been keeping track of this blog since day 1 knows that i work as a hostess at a restaurant. (but since no one has i figured i should refresh those memories) As a hostess i also take care of any take out orders. Aaaaand so theres this guy who comes in every so often and orders food. And when i ask him for his name 2 put on his order he always tells me his name is 'bob'. (rather he says something like 'oh you can put down bob') And, it could be just me but i always felt that he was giving me a fake name. Not just because of the way he says it but also the tone of voice and how he pronounces his own name. (i feel like a psychologist) Buut he rarely comes in so i usualy forget about it. 'Except', last Thursday. When he came in, in his work uniform....GASP ITS THE UNIFORM, I HAVE A THING FOR MEN IN UNIFORMS DONT I?!??!! 'ahem' when he came in w/ his 'chef' uniform on and i was like *hey your actually pretty good looking* (of course i just thought that...) aaaand he told me his name was bob and then flashed me his 1000watt grin which i now this is really really cute cuz its like.... a full face grin. Yadda yadda end of that for a few days. And then on Saturday, low and behold he came in during lunch...to STAY... wooh aaaah. he asked for a table for 2 and if he could borrow the phone. and he called but no one picked up so i just took him 2 his table where he told me he was expecting his mother in 20 mintues (haha) And then like 15 mintues later a lady called in saying that our phone number was on her call display and that her son had probably called looking for her. She was like 'Yes i believe my son called looking for me, his names...* well i'll just say that its not bob. theres probably a reason why he doesn't tell his name to ppl like me for reasons like this....not to mention that i dont remember it....) and then i gave bob the phone and as i walked away and started thinking 'ha-haaa i know your real name' TeeHee i feel so special, so sneaky.... even though his mommy gave it away. Hohohoho i'll never look at you the same way again bob.

gangsta'

(This post was supposed to be yesterdays but my internet crashed before i could post it) Hey yo, C-dawg here. Hoy today was busy and i'm pretty tired. But i have, once again, a small anecdote to tell everyboby. So i was at work all day today and in the evening this young guy walks in (he actually looked like jacob hoggarth the lead singer from hedley!) and he comes up 2 me 2 order some to go. aaaand i was like *hi what can i do for you!.... (wow you smell heavily of pot mister!)* and he ordered 2 boats to go and some small random other stuff. Yadda yadda he comes back 20 mintues later 2 pay and he whips out this 'huge' wad of cash. (once again the pot-ish smell waifs over 2 me). So his bill was $77 something and he counted his moolah like the pro he was and gave me what i assumed 2 be $80 and i was like 'thanks do you need change?' and he went *um..no...er.. how much is that?* and i recounted it and i was like *oh theres $90 here* (taking two 5's 2 give back to him) and then he goes *oh thats fine thanks* And left. and i was like .... : -O (that is my face in shock btw). man i would KILL to have a drug dealer boyfriend. hahah....but not really. so yeah folks i got paid w/ drug money today! Hahaha. Ohoh a 2nd story i just remembered. There was a group of 6 ppl today that came in. And when they where finished they sent the one young guy up 2 pay (poor guy) and he was paying w/ debit, so i swiped his card yadda yadda. Didn't notice it when he GAVE me his card, but when i gave him the pinpad i noticed this ping pong ball sized protrusion from his wrist. Seriously, it looked like his wrist was broken like 5 times. And i really REALLY didn't mean to but it scared the living begeezus outta me and when i handed him the pinpad and seen it i went *here you g-UH-oo...* and i twitched a little. sob sob, i'm so mean.... sorry mister. Sigh, yeaaah well i think i should go 2 sleep now, i'm uber tired. I ironically have more shifts during exam week than compared 2 when i just have regular school... BOO-URNS.

fun fun

Hi sportsfans! Back again. I just have a little anecdote that i'd love to share w/ everybody. Today for some idiotic reason i decided to.... rollerblade to work. What is really idiotic is that i actually dont really know how to rollerblade. I can 'glide' and thats about it. My balance and grace on those babies are practically reduced to nil. So why i decided 2 go to work on those hell blades beats the living crap outta me. But anyways. So i strapped them on (completely forgeting the fact that i haven't rollerbladed in like 2 years, and that i also cannot stop, a very important thing to learn folks) Haaah, weeeell i guess i did think it over before because i actually planned my route 2 work. Rather than going straight to work via 110 Street and down the hill, i decided to go out to 109 street where i vaguely remembered there being not much of a hill. But apparently a minor decline is all that it takes to have me spiralling out of control... haha no i exagerated.... a little. Basically i started speeding up while going down 109. (funny cuz the ppl walking the opposite way prolly know i couldnt' stop and cleared this huge path....i should have just fell and saved face....) Anyways, i was coming up to Jasper ave, and realizing that the light was turning red and since i didn't want to run into the middle of traffic i opted for the next best thing.
To stop.
By crashing into a stop sign
yeah it was pretty funny now that i think about it. I practically winded myself. Whats even funnier is after i ran into the post, i just went on like nothing happened....*sigh* i came home later and found dollar sized red bruise on my knee... *s-II-gh* Rollerblades should have easier braking mechanisms....hahaha. Thats prolly about it. I told my workmates and they laughed...really hard. hahah which is what i'd do to if someone told me that story.

*gasp* oxygen at last

Ung, finally some breathing room. whoooo, i was waiting for this moment for a week now. I finished my Art H 209 exam today. aaaah. How well i did is another question. I'd guess that the first 3 qestions were pretty okay. The last one however i was totally not looking forward to. Crazy neighborhood. Not to mention that since it was the last question, my hand was sore and i only had 20 mintues it was basically an incoherrent jumble of scribbles and words that might or might not make sense..... sigh. I should be dead tired seeing as i got les than 2 hours of sleep last night, but i've been itching 2 write in you blog baby. *oh ye-ah* hahaha. These past few days were kinda depressing. Feel bad saying it but its true. Thursday was my first official sleep in day, and then i went 2 work. My grandparents came out again to see my cousin and her new baby and she had a month old party type thing, so that pretty much took care of friday. saturday i also worked, i feel pretty bad now because i ditched having dinner w/ my cousins because i had 2 study. But at the same time if i went i wouldn't have gotten any studying in. Sunday i went 2 work again and .... i think we went out for dinner.... can't remember. Monday.... did i go 2 work again?? yeah i did (bad because i seemed 2 have gotten more work shifts during exam week) went 2 work, got off early then went 2 the U 2 study and check out that 'neighborhood' for Q4. brisk walks are actually quite relaxing, i should do them more often. Then we went out for dinner (for shure this time). The 2 days before exams are always the greatest cuz i cram like a madwoman. Monday night i started 2 kick it into high gear, but since my usual study areas were not available (my room because grandparents were sleeping there, and the living room cuz tchow was watching full house and that was a distraction) So where did i go 2 study? The bathroom. Yes i took in a stool and my busy board lap desk thing and sat in the bathroom for 3 hours. Pretty sad eh? But at least you see the commitment i make. hahah. Tuesday was actually pretty crazy too. I managed 2 sleep in till 12 when i suddenly reembered i had 2 finish my report for DES 370. Well it was more add pictures and a title page the actual report was done awhile ago. I had 2 go 2 staples 2 photocopy the pictures and by the time i got home it was around 2ish. I was thinking of taking a nap but i actually decided not 2 and got in an hour worth of studying (that folks is amazing that i turned down sleep) I went 2 work were it was unbelievable SLOW. no idea, me and the 2 servers sat and folded chopsticks for almost 3 straight hours. Then it picked up around 8 which was horrible cuz i had 2 leave around 8 30 to go 2 the U and see my instructor. But my brother said he'd give me a ride so i decided 2 stay until 8 45. I called him then and he was like *i'm sleeping, take the train* Man i was so pissed off cuz i was going 2 be late. So i ran 2 the train station then ran 2 the studio where my instructor must have thought i was a beheamoth cuz i was so out of breath and red and sweating. hahah *sigh* what a last impression. Interview was the same as usual, I'm an idiot yadda yadda. hahah Pretty much jeff talking and me knodding my head. i dunno how come i can't think of anything 2 say 2 jeff even though i find that hes the instructor that seems 2 be the most understanding of students cuz of the age range and likes and disklikes. Buuuut thats just assuming.
OH! speaking of good looking guys. *hohoho* At work on Monday i swear to goodness that i seen somebody who looked like...craig(well actually i've never seen the guy in real life im so it was based on memory and foolishness) UNG i still get that floaty sensation when i see his name. (you bastard) But yes, so i seen this guy who looked like craig had he aged, which technically since the last picture i seen of him he has. Like he wasn't super pretty or anything and actually reminded me of those like....computer aging programs. But there was a resemblance/false hope. Hahah. But i was like *ah what are the chances, hes obviously not craig* And THEN ...while i was secretly watching hahah i noticed he was left handed.... GUH. Buuuut i tried 2 let it go, pure coincedence. And thats where i left it at. Although i would have loved 2 have been a creep and read the name on his credit card buuuut i didnt. (mainly cuz he paid w/ cash... hahah i AM a creep) sigh. Thats pretty much now for the escapades of corinna. Just gotta gun down my mandarin exam and its smooth sailing.....animethon come sooner!!

been a while

it sure has, its been so long *blogger.com* no longer appears in my address bar history..... *wow* Aaaanyum last day of classes today! whoo-haa-hoo. Kinda bitter sweet though, didn't really feel like last day. My design class didnt have an end of the year class party, although they did go 2 a bar. I think i might have went if i called LS out cuz shes a ppl person and a drinker, but iris seemed 2 the the first person i thought of.. ironic though cuz she hasn't finished classes yet.... but yeaaah. last day of classes today. aaaah i was waiting for today for the last few weeks now. Though i'm seriously not looking forward to my artH 209 exam in which i haven't attended class for a long time.... dang. Umm... these past few days i have been re reading all the manga that i have every bought and have completed the series. So far that is... CardCaptorSakura, Chobits, Paradise Kiss, and Sailor Moon. oooh every so often (mostly during the summer) i like to dust them off and read the whole series. I finished reading CCS in 2 days.... how sad. hahaha. (wow i have a lot of girly manga.) Ooop oop. looking forward to the animethon this year again. Hopefully i can go. I'm sure i've mentioned this before but i'm going to be ANBU Kakashi from Naruto. I'm going to be a hot man... YE-AH hahaha. oooh right in design class we were making dog houses to auction off for the SPCA. Sounded like a super fun project. I think i would have preferred working on my own, but w/ the limited amount of time i'm grateful for the group. The 3 of us got along pretty well (much more than H & W i think) but i think its cuz not only did we get the choice in choosing partners but also cuz the 3 of us are pretty carefree. Um... but i do have 2 say i dont like working in groups cuz i always feel so bad if i do soemthing wrong (which oh boy did i ever) I seemed 2 have made a lot of mistakes during this project... sigh sigh. I'm sure L & A think i'm totally incompetent. daaaaw. But oh well i tried my almost hardest. Um... i'm just thinking now about when i should have my interview thing w/ jeff.... originally i signed up for the one at 9-9 15 so that i could go right after work. BUT i looked at the list thing before i left and theres a huge gap between the 2nd last person and me so i might leave early on W and just see jeff then. jargon five. I think thats all...Ooooh no wait. I bought a plant last sunday. A...um... i forget the name of the flower but they're my new 2nd favorite flower. Its those flowers that look like daisys but have a lot more petals and come in like white, red, pink, and i think orange, and the stems are really thick and sometimes the florist puts them in a big straw so they dont bend... but yeah i bought a red plant of those flowers. Its sitting on my cpu desk, and it makes me happy when i look at it... aaaaaw. I want 2 call it Mr. Ukki (for no apparent reason... hohoho)

hoy-a

wow, first it was a week of non stop posting, now its a week of stop posting. hahah i really actually have nothing to say, i'm just trying to kill....5 mintues and 52 seconds. I've been on this rampage of video game speed run's. Its so f'ing amazing when some crazy kid can beat super mario in less time than it takes me to brush my teeth. hahah. I watched some guy beat mario 64 in 21 mintues....best 21 mintues of my life....i have however lost all urge 2 play mario 64 again. hahaha. uuum....so it was busy at work today...stranger for a tuesday, but it was prolly cuz we said the magicall words of *i dont think its going to be busy today* huuuur. Um... well our dog house in ID is coming along okay, cept i felt pretty bad for getting that angle wrong on our house... sigh....i've lost all math skills....why oh why.... Um... oh yeah! As of 2morrow i officially have only one week of school left. Boy oh boy this year seemed 2 go by uber fast. I can't wait to waste my summer away!!!! huuurr... come on super mario video hurry.....DAMMIT MY VIDEO JUST FROZE.... HUUUUUUUURG I WAITED 20 MINTUES SO I COULD SEE PRINCESS BEAT SUPER MARIO 2 IN 5 MINTUES..... HELP ME JEBUS!!!!
maaan, im depressed now....sigh. if anyone out there can beat and super mario game in an amazingly short time...*hey hows it going...we should hook up* .... ; )

yo dawg

C-cho, here how goes it. Arg matey. this ones prolly gonna be another short li'l post. I have a mandarin quiz 2morrow which i am extremely not looking forward too. oh snap. OH i remember what i wanted 2 say now. *hoho* i seen mister good lookin' again today. haaar, i forgets if i posted about him before. (just have 2 cut in, i'm listening 2 the main theme from FFVII right now and i just have to say that i absolutely love this part even since i was young.....*sigh* so beautiful) oh but right! hahah the pretty man came into my work place again, haha hes so lonely he always comes in by himself....but he sure is pretty! *wink wink nudge nudge* hahaha i have absolutely no idea what that means. But, i should prolly go 2 bread, gotta go 2 the U early 2morrow so i can register for china 202 next year and hopefully get some moolah back from el senoir der. Tra lalaaa.

Re-arrange, re-arrange

I was super bored today, so i re arranged my bed room.... hahah. It was so out of the blue, i went 2 put my manga's away and i got a little angry cuz i couldn't get 2 my side table cuz my bed was so close 2 the wall and there was already abox in the way. so i was like *ARG this would be so much better if my sidetable and cpu desk switched places* and then a lightbulb went on and i spent the next 2 hours barricaded in my room moving stuff around. hohohoh. hahaha. I love walking into a room right after you've re arranged it and your like *WTF...ooooh yeaaaaah* hahaha. huuurg, couple nights ago i was lying in bed bored and so i decided 2 see how long i could hold my breath for. hahaha and then coincedentially that night i dreamed i flew up in a spaceship and we had to evacuate and the only way i could stay alive was by holding my breath till i entered earth's atmosphere. and if i breathed the pressure would crush my body. hohoho man it was actually a pretty scary dream if i think about it cuz i was thinking that i'd die....yowzers. haaarg anyways thats all for now. this entry was just meant to kill some time hahah.

ja- jumb-oo

ho hum, i just came back from rum jungle w/ my workmates. hohoho. pretty decent night tonight. except that i am to believe that i am allergic 2 alcohol : ( I had...what 2 drinks and a shot of tequilla. and i got all red. like red *everywhere* my hands and feet are pretty bloated right now and i 20 mintues ago i was having a little problem breathing. hohohoh dangerous..... hahaha dangerous or CRAZ-EE hohoho. anyways i'm gonna go pass out now, i hope my lungs dont stop working.

Magical Post Number 1-0-1 !!

I should get a prize for updating this so frequently. Hohoh seriously i thought this blog was gonna be a phase in my life, like showering. HA no kidding about that one....seriously.... Any hoo, another quick note i would just like to note. Jacob Hoggard is one uber hot mofo. Dear lord, hahah he sure is purdy. mmm. tee hee. Welp thats all for today folks.

swoon factor #2

Oh i forgot 2 mention in my previous post. I noticed something else today while i was at work about members of the opposite sex. I mentioned before that when i find out a guy can speak multiple languages it ups his 'hotness'. Another factor that can add to that is how a guy dresses. I knew before but today i just re-remembered at how attracted i am to guys who dress well. i dont mean like, blingin' expensive brand name clothes, i mean like, crisp dress shirts and black pants. Oh dear lord, this pretty decent man came in today by himself wearing like a black business trenchcoat style jacket and i was like *meh*. Then he sat down and took off his jacket and he was wearing like a striped light pink dress shirt (w/ the top 2 buttons undone....) and black pants, and i was like *Hell-OO* Hahaha, i have weird taste in men. I like punk/emo makeup-y men, and then i like business,well dressed, tie wearing men. HOH if i found a 9-5 office working man by day who's past times include writing emo music and going to night clubs, HOH i'd never have 2 day dream again! haha....
ARGH ITS 12 30, GOTTA GO BREAD

if i were a guy, i'd be pretty good lookin'

yo, haha serious about the title there. cathy sent me some of the pics she took from NY and theres this one pic where i seriously look like her ex. I set it as my display pic and she said so too. siigh.
Oh right, so on saturday me T and Cathy went 2 the mad hatter's ball. We got there, and this lady dressed as the white rabbit (just like me) waved at us and said "Nice costume ladies!" (in a deep deep man's voice). whoo-ee. Hahah, so then the 3 of us sat down and i looked at the program and noticed who this party was put together by.... "The Pride Centre of Edmonton" (they're symbol thinging was a rainbow happy face....) WHOO-EE hahah so T just happened 2 bring me to a gay party. Hahah but it was pretty fun. There were drag queens there and drag Alice was HOT hoho seriously he had 'nice legs'. I'm super jealous....
Oyah, someone left me a comment on my blog today! Hoh, if i do remember correctly this is the first comment i've recieved that isn't A) from my friends, B) from myself, or C) from some guy trying 2 sell life insurance. Thanks dude, you've made my day. I visited his blog page 2 check out his stuff and i laughed hard at this one entry he made about teaching grade 3/4 gym class and the need of wearing 'protection' against flailing limbs (especially considering the heights of these kids) Mwa-haa. i laughed at this too: "I once saw a blind man trip over his seeing-eye-dog and I laughed so hard I almost puked. And it wasn't like I was a child - I was probably in my early 20s. Here I come, Satan!" (Making a comment about evil things hes done) It's okay spoonman, i once knocked over an entire display of wooden jewelry boxes at a discount store. aaaaah.
I got my visa (rather found should be the correct word) today. $1300 all in 7 days. pretty sad ey? hahah i'd be so broke if i ever lived in NY. To top things off, after i payed for my statement, I came home from work and went shopping on the net. So sad. i really really want these 2 perfumes. The first one is ralph laurens....well...'ralph' spray. I smelt it somewhere before few years ago and i thought it was really pretty and everytime i smell it again i still thing its really pretty....sigh why didn't i buy you in NY?? The second perfume i want is 'memoirs of a geisha' by fresh. I actually have forgotten how it smells like but when i smelt it in NY it was really nice too. i'm dying 2 smell it again because i remembered it smelled pretty....sigh why didn't i buy you in NY?? haaaarg. aaaanyways, i'm gong 2 bed now. LOOK its only 12AM!! maybe if i hop in bed right now i'll fall asleep before 4!!

pretty men.

(Shortest post ever today.) Mainly because i only have one thing i want to note, which i will embellish on in a later entry....
*Young men in drag are H-O-T*

我去bar很开心啊!!!

其得, 我今天去得地方其是太好了! siiigh, i love night people....
i went on my very first pub crawl today w/ a bunch of fry-ends. I feel kinda bad because iris asked me 2 go 2 this art auction thingy but i completely forgot about it....but at the same time.... i really wanted 2 go on this pub crawl..... Althought the actual crawl wasn't that great as i was hoping it would be. We stayed at each bar for like....30 minutes. And then the bars seemed 2 get progressively worse. First we went 2 The Globe, then Iron Horse, then The Standard and finally Union Hall. I think i liked Iron Horse best out of the 3 music wise anyways. The Standard's set up was nice but the music wasn't that great i find. Oh hahah and our bus leader man was extremely good looking. Or well not 'extremely' but pretty good. Tee Hee. This guy threw up in front of his and splatter got onto my shoes....*sob sob* Aaaah, anyways the Union was really bad i think, they were overbooked and we had 2 wait like 10 mintues 2 get in (even w/ VIP passes) and inside everything was sticky, and the music was the worst i think. It reminded me of moshing music. Hahah. Aaaah so anyways we got on some random bus and it took us to Whyte Ave where we all walked 2 Sam Wok (we beat the rush by like 10 mintues i swear) and ate some dinner. And then the group split up and me and cathy went in search of an elusive taxi. Hahaha surprisingly this was actually my favorite part of the night. We walked for like 20 mintues in the blowing snow (in short skirts also) trying 2 wave a cab down. And we started walking 2 wards the U and me and cathy went on the opposite sides of the road trying 2 get a cab and while i was standing by myself a random guy walked up to me and gave me a single rose.... aaaaaaaaaaw.... hahaha. the miracle of mini skirts strikes again. So then we were still having no luck and my thunder-thighs were starting 2 get numb so i thought we would try walking 2 Tim Horton's and waiting 4 a cab there cuz thats what i did last time i got stranged at whyte. And so me and cathy started walking, and this cute guy wearing only a t-shirt and jeans jogs past us and is like,
"aaaarg its f-in FREEZING out here" (looks at us)
and i go, *it sure the hell is!*
"HEY, at least you guys have JACKETS!!!!"
and i said, *HEY, at least you have PANTS!!!!*
"....thats a very good point...." and then he ran back and spun me and cathy around (and i said he was cute) and then he started jogging off again. AND THEN. an empty cab came by and he waved at it but it drove past him, and me and cathy waved, and it started 2 slow down, but this other couple started running towards it and we were like *NOOOOOOOOOooooooo* and then, the cutie like bulldozed past the 1st couple and was like *TAXI MAN, TAKE THESE 2 GIRLS THEY'RE FREEZING, SERIOUSLY I'VE SEEN THEM WALKING FROM LIKE 8 BLOCKS TAKE THEM TAKE THEM!!!!* ....and the taxi man did take us..... AAAAAAAAWWW. so then before i got in the taxi i was like *oh thanks so much!!* and he winked at me and kissed his fingers and put them on my cheek and then he turned his face and kinda leaned in towards me. Aaaaand i prolly woulda done it either or, but i still thought he was really sweet, and since he didnt try and like force a slobbery kiss on me, i kissed him on the cheek....aaaaaaww.... i'm so sappy. hahaha but it was AWESOME!!!! sigh. i shoulda asked for his name. why WHYYYYY. le sigh. I also think i re-caught my cold again.... heheh OOPS.... aaaaargh gotta go 2 bread now.
ps. i think i'm a little tipsy, i'm re-reading this entry and i realize i make very little sense....

Olé!

super short post today. I'm aiming 2 fall asleep before 1AM. (i tried yesterday but somehow it became 3AM....) anyhoo, just wanted 2 comment on design class today. Hohoh i'm so happy that my stool is finally finished (er well not 'quite' i want 2 touch up the blotchy paint job i did) But i'm actually extremely proud of this project. Hahah A) because its actually the first functional working thing that i built. B) its the first thing i made completely using power tools and wood. and C) it looks presentable! Hohoh i'm so proud of you stoolzilla. hahaha. I know that like in a manufactured eye its far from perfect, but, HEY SHUDDUP i like it. hahaha I'm debating whether or not i should give it away because it holds a special place in my heart....haha. sigh. Anyways i'm going to bed now. hohoh looky you guys a post completed in under 5 minutes! shocking.
ps. looking forward to friday and saturday, hohoh perhaps i will meet my future husband? hahah riiiiight.

green eyed monster i am.

boy boy boy, i've been turing into a jealous little girl lately....hahah not really but it was all i could think off. Yesterday during the last hour of work, this extremely extremely good looking man came in to eat. And he asked me if we had bento boxes, and i was like 'yes but you just missed our lunch one, the dinner one is a bit more expensive' and he said he'd sit down anyways and order something else. and i was like (yay, now i can secretly stare at his gorgeousness tee hee) hahah yes i know i'm creepy, but hey its what happens when you've been single for so long. Aaaanyways, so he sat, i watched...yadda yadda. And Tracy my server just happened 2 come back from break and sat down and read her book. And that guy came up 2 pay and Karen (azn server) took care of his bill, so i went 2 the hostess stand so i could *be polite* and say bye. hohoho. But rather than turn around and leave the pretty man turned to his left and.... introduced himself to tracy. apparently he asked her out for coffee.....*sob sob* so close.... But, i thoguht that that was really really sweet. tracy said that she liked the guy because he had the balls to just walk up and ask someone out for coffee, aaaand i agree. I was talking 2 jess just now and she was mentioning how guys always ask when she works next and stuff. However they do it indirectly (ie through other workmates on the phone) and THAT takes out all the sweetness. siiigh. there was something else i wanted 2 mention but it appears that i have forgotten it.

Hoy-a

I was just reading the See paper in hopes of finding this elusive Mad Hatters Ball that i heard about from T. Hohoho sounds pretty neat-o, i actually kinda wanna go 2 this (and since i said it it prolly means i will) yahooo. Me and the ladies from NY went out 4 lunch today at a japanese restaurant to reminisce....*siiiigh* i miss NY too you guys. hahah. Then i went 2 the ID shop in hopes of biscuiting my children's stool together but poor kenny was swamped (w/ this one girl actually) and he didn't have time 2 show me how 2 use the biscuit machine till like....5 mintues before class. *sob sob*.... sooo i brought all my pieces home to do i dont know what. Aaaaarg mateys. Then i went 2 see ....um... 'failure to launch' w/ Ls. We *were* gonna see ultraviolet but she wanted 2 go see the former. eeh it was actually pretty decent, this is the first movie i've seen w/ Matthew Mc..mc...mccona... you know who. Hes actually quite good looking, and... i want 2 say i think hes naturally athletic, because he sure does look that way.... Did i mention to you guys that when Tracy and Nicole went 2 Vanny for reading week they seen Michael Rosenbaum? THOSE LUCKY BASTARDS. they saw sexy lexy....sob sob. I just learned an acronym that i saw from SEE. DTMFA. (dump that mother fucker already) Hohoho i thought that was priceless. Oh another thing i wanted 2 briefly mention was Stockholm Syndrome. I always thought there was something kinda cute about that. (although up until now i always thought that it was the captor that felt drawn 2 the victim not the other way around) but still its equally as captivating....le sigh. Anyways i should go 2 bread now so that i can wake up and go 2 work 2morrow w/o looking half dead. eeeeerg aaaaarg

near death like state of being

HOY-ho, its mass blog entry time. yaaaaaah.
Dwear Mne, I was so sick yesterday. My dummy of a brofer caught a cold, and he was in and out of my room (TAKING A NAP IN MY BED....) and i ended up catching his cold (dirty son of a....) well actually i just got a wicked sore throat, and i didn't want it 2 get worse so i like, ran 2 save ons and bought medicine and halls, and rubbed vicks vapo-rub all over my bod-ay. my sore throat didn't escalate to anything worse really but i got one hell of a headache on Wednesday right before heading to des. class. Hoy seriously i dont think i've ever had such a throbbing headache before (i was worried i was going to cut off something important or pass out..hahah...bad bad) But nothing happened. However i got home and felt really sick and didn't eat dinner and i tried going 2 bread early but i got really hot under the covers and when i kicked them off i felt really cold. sooo i might have also had a fever too. heh heh. Boy was i sick. Haaah i feel really silly (hey, being sick makes you hallucinate) but while i was in bed i was imagining that it was going to be my last day on earth, and i was kinda scared to fall asleep.....BUT as you can see i'm here writing this blog entry so....'i made it!' haaaaaaar....
Anyways, there is a main reason for this entry today. When i was in NY i realized that me and Ls had a lot in common that i never would have imagined. And she actually really surprised me in the typer of person she is. Well, she has a twin sister (that surprised me because i always think having a twin is really special) and one night the 4 of us girls were just sitting around talking. And we got on the topic of family or something, and Ls told us this story that happened like...several months ago, and i felt it really hit close to home. Anyways, Ls told us that her twin had attempted to commit suicide. She said that she had just walked in to check up on her sister and found her all pale and practically unconscious on her bed. And obviously Ls was really scared and called her family for help, but her dad was really skeptical and didn't want 2 take her 2 the hospital. But thankfully alot of Ls's relatives are in med school and they kept making her drink water and stuff, but eventually her dad finally took her 2 emergency. They had 2 make her drink this...um...charcoal watery stuff as i believe Ls called it, to induce vommiting. And obviously it must taste gross and not wanting 2 drink it. But Ls sat there and held her sisters hand and talked to her till like 6AM just getting her 2 drink the water. Later Ls told us that she was really angry w/ herself because she had walked in on her sister an hour before the whole escapade started and she thought her sister was acting a little weird but didn't think much of it. And she was like *....if i had known and tried 2 talk 2 her then she probably wouldn't have done what she did....* (Her sister is okay right now btw.) But what i found really scary is the stuff Ls told us later. She said that she knew that her sister had problems before this incident happened. She said that at like....11-12-ish her sister stopped taking/getting pictures taken of herself, and she also started like....hurting herself. And when Ls asked her why she did that she said somthing like 'oh because it feels comforting....' And her description of her sister sent a chill up my spine. Because....well there was a period of time where i constantly felt that way, and the way she was describing her sister reminded me of myself. I used to (still do kinda) hate taking pictures of myself or w/ other people because i always felt that i took really bad pictures and that i was really ugly. And actually i dont like looking at pictures of myself from the past because i still see myself as really ugly when compared to all my friends. Same thing goes w/ looking in a mirror too. When i first moved out to edmonton i was actually kind of scared for myself because i did some scary stuff too. My brother used to come home really late from class sometimes therefore i'd be home by myself. every so often i would always get really really upset over something and would start crying and screaming really really hard and i would seriously dig my nails into my palms so hard i'd get welts the next day....this one time i took a serrated knife into the bathroom w/ me and i started 2 run in over my wrist. Like gently at first, and then i started thinking about all the stuff i didn't like about myself. and the more i thought, the more angry i got and the harder i started 2 run the knife across my wrists. It probably must've hurt like hell but at that time it didn't matter because honestly i think the mental anguish was 10X worse than the physical pain. huurg, suicide is so stupid, and i bet half the reasons ppl commit suicide are because of dumb superficial reasons. The world is a pretty shitty place i think, and when someone is feeling a bit depressed, everything can turn against them. I think i thought to much in the past. I cared way too much about what others thought of me and didn't care about myself....god. i dont know how many times i must've thought of suicide when i was 17. I think, though, that one of the main reasons i'm still here today though is because of my family. I mean i dont think any of them knew what i was going through at the time (because i wasn't completely depressed all the time, but everyonce in awhile) but, i still really loved my family and the close friends that i had. And i knew from experience what it felt like when a friend or loved one hurt your feelings or has ever made you cry. And... well i never ever wanted to be the source of that pain or feeling. And, pretty much i knew that if i ever died that way i'd cause a lot of saddness to my loved ones, and that was the last thing that i ever wanted to do.....
Wow. It feels really good getting that out every so often. I mean i dont do that stuff anymore, but when Ls told us that story in NY i was really really quiet, and i thought of telling them about my experience to but....sigh i didnt. I think i felt there was too many ppl there at the time. If it was just me and Ls or me and C maybe i would have. But we'll never know now will we. siiiigh. Anyways, thats the story that i've been wanting 2 put down in words since the night Ls told us that story. ay, its time for bread now okey. cheerio.

distant memories of new york.

aaah heres the last day i spent in NY, along w/ all the other snipits that i remember happening just dont recall when.....
Sunday was pretty much a travel day minus the getting up at 3AM part. The ladies all went 2 get their nails done and H got his hair cut. Then we ate one last breakfast/lunch in NY and called it a day. Siiigh. The flight back was *horrible* we had 2 make a stop over in Montana to fuel up, and i didn't get back home till ~1 30AM (flight was supposed 2 get in at 10 30PM). didn't make it any better that no one came 2 pick me up....sob sob. and that was the end of New York. I felt that it was an awesome trip though so it was all good. We did so much stuff and i'm super glad. I forget wat day but we say Beauty & the Beast on broadway. It was pretty good. I thought Lumiere stole the show, and i bought a beast doll. haha i shoulda bought lumiere but i didn't see him till after i bought beast. oh right, on the first day in NY i passed by the waldorf astoria. It holds a special place in my heard from the movie *coming to america* w/ eddie murphy and arsenio hall. sigh.... The waldorf astoria is a super super super fancy hotel, and from the picture/ad that i seen on the outside of the building, the inside must be F 'in amazing. Hahah. On the first day i also saw my first 'Kinko's'. I heard dane cook say kinko's all the time and i'm like *wut the hell is kinkos?' hahah apparenlty its not as sick as it sounds. Kinko's is apparently another name for FedEx.... haha who'd have knew. I also forgot 2 say that on saturday night after dinner we ran into some problems getting home. The train stations were starting 2 close down and everyone was low on cash. Not to mention the ticket dispensing machine stopped taking credit cards and bills, which is what practically everyone had. Eventually we just bought 2 tickets and everyone squished into the stalls to get through. Hahaha, liek i told everyone, a trip isnt a trip unless something goes awry. I thought it was fun. hahah..... aaaaah i love you new york. And that'll be it for today. I still have one more entry/anecdote to tell you guys. Its regarding something that happened one night when all us ladies were gossiping and sharing stories. I've been wanting 2 write about it for a really really long time now....

Fare thee well!

I just realized how un-appetizingly long the previous post was so i cut down it in half and pasted the other half in a new post. It doens't seem that menacing now does it? hahah. Enjoy.
*Thursday February 23rd. We were supposed 2 go the the statue of liberty this day but all the tickets 2 the statue were sold out. So corinna the great called and reserved some tix for the next day. (i was/and still am kinda/ worried because they took so much of my information) Anyhoo, we went and walked around the Time Warner Centre and went to HUGO BOSS where we encountered the nicest/ funniest salesman i have ever met before. i love new york. haha. We were gonna go 2 the Empire State Building but by the time someone mentioned it the sun was already setting and we decided 2 go tomorrow. All the girls decided we wanted 2 walk around SOHO somemore so we did. We got attracted by this shiny sparkly store that sold everything accessories. Cept since im allergic 2 most of that stuff i started 2 get a little itchy when i walked in...haha jkjk. i managed 2 find a bauble necklace that i thought was pretty and a star necklace for I, that if i wasn't allergic 2, i would have bought for myself....sigh. I *think* that we went 2 eat at a cheesy chinese restaurant on thursday. The funny thing is our bill at the chinese restaurant including tip was less than the total tip that we had 2 give our server at ninja new york. aaaah funny.
*Friday February 24th. I was actually quite surprised that i hadn't passed out from lack of sleep yet because everyday that i had been in NY so far i slept late (3AM-ish) and woke up early (7 45-8 00) Anyhoo, we took a ferry to the statue of liberty (shes a lot more atomic green than i expected) It was pretty neat i'll say but i was a little dissapointed because we only got 2 go as high as the pedestal. I think if you paid more you could go up 2 her crown or something. It was super super windy that day and being high off ground in the middle of the ocean in skirts wasn't the greatest idea. Fun yet silly. We almost missed the last ferry of the island, but thank goodness we didn't. I was so happy that this day turned out really well. We made it to the Empire State Building, and despite the super long line up we still made it in time to see the sunset. It was soooo amazing how the cityscape practically went from color to black in like 30 mintues. Amaaaazing. Um...after that we went back 2 the Y and put some proper clothes on and then went 2 eat at another cafe. oh no wait i lied. we went to eat at japanese restaurant #3. Their appetizers were eggsalent and i am in heart w/ their Gobo Chips (strips of deepfried eggplant w/ this sexy awesome cod roe, spicy mayo dip....drooool) My main course wasn't that great. I ordered a tekka don (tuna on rice) w/ this yam puree. which i thought was going to be really tasty....turns out yam was this weird yam, and the puree was *extremely* cold and slimy. *shudder*, i thought if i stirred up the purree and rice together it would neutralize the taste...boy was i wrong. hahaha. aaaah. (ps. have i ever mentioned that i never get tired of japanese food, haha)
*Saturday February 25th. This was our last day in NY and also our *free day*. Me, R and H walked around 5th....or was it 6th ave some, and went 2 the disney store, this specialty chocolate store, and the Tiffany store. Dear lord the jewelry in that store is so expensive. (the 1st floor diamond section anyways) a single pair of earrings was $3900USD. One earring alone could have paid for a semester of tuition for me. good lord. The tension between R & H was starting 2 peak at an unbelieve able high and i had absolutely no idea what do to. hoya. We met th rest of the gang at SOHO again and i finally made it to the ellusive Pearl River Market that claire had been telling me so greatly about. I think i maxed out my credit card there. hahah. That was pretty much it for that day. Oh for dinner we met H's friends and ate at this korean restaurant that, although nice looking wasn't that great. My friends told me it was quite expensive and i'll agree that the service was bad. Ho hum... I still have some things i remember doing but can't see m2 remember the proper dates so i'll write up another blog w/ all the descrepancies another day. bye bye folks!

The Inbetween

Boy have i slacked off or what, i still haven't finished my NewYork Update. HOY. I've probably completely forgotten everythingby now.... lets see how much else i can remember....HOHOH i just had the greatest idea, i can look at all my pictures and use them as a date reference 2 what i did that was interesting!!! BRILLIANT IDEA, mwa hahahaha....
*Monday February 20th. We went to the Museum of Modern Art and i'll have 2 say that i was probably a little dissapointed w/ this one because i was expecting the MoMa to be extravagant. (the way i felt about the Met) But it was pretty okay i think. We went 2 eat at our first of three Japanese restaurants this day for lunch. It was pretty good i think. Oh except that when we got there we got this table w/ a couch at the head, and the girls were (funny cuz i dont refer 2 myself as a girl) but they were fighting over who got 2 sit on the couch, UNTIL this thumbnail sized bug crawled out and onto the armrest. Everybody simultaneously got up and moved away from the bug. Um..., we all ordered bento's and i added on a spicy tuna (i have made it a new thing of mine to try out the spicy tuna in every japanese restaurant i go to....assuming they have one) Hahaha. Well after the MoMa i think we walked around Times Square....again. hahah and Sephora probably. I think somewhere along these few days i bought some clothes and random stuff and H&M, and the Billabong store in times square. sigh, i heart you new york, really i do.
*Tuesday February 21st. We went to the Graffiti/Mural tour in Brooklyn, which i was really looking forward too because i thought it was a walking tour and we'd get 2 see all sorts of graffiti. However it was a bus ride tour and i fell asleep through a good 1/2 of it. I loved all of the graffiti work we saw but i thought the murals weren't that interesting. Aaaaanywhoo, after the tour we went and walked around SOHO for a bit i think and went 2 the Strand Bookstore were i bought some fashion/design books and a addams family book for jess which i woldn't have mind keeping for myself but, oooh well. After that we went and walked around SOHO for a bit and i dont remember what stores we went 2 but...yeah...we did that. Hahah. I dont remember what we ate for dinner that night so it was probably some cafe food.
*Wednesday February 22nd. This was the last day that we ever saw Dick and co. till departure day. Hahah, i feel kinda bad but...aaah what can you do. We went 2 some small random galleries in SOHO again and i seen a pair of the cutest little dogs ever in a gallery. (weird cuz i usually dotn like small dogs) But anyways, we split up during lunch and walked SOHO somemore. I dont exactly remember what we did but....yeah spent some money probably. Hoh (picture reference) we followed henry around some and went 2 the Brooklyn Bridge, which i'll have 2 say after looking at my pictures, is really pretty. We walked around Brooklyn that day i think, and in the evening we went 2 visit Ground Zero. I got shivers up my spine when i stood at the Terminal spot and just looked over the site....We then traveresed 2 the World Finance Center where we spent pretty much an hour taking pictures of a ball of light. we're so childish. hahah. Wow we did alot of stuff on Wednesday. hahah. For dinner we went to NINJA NEW YORK. And for any readers out there who ever visit new york i highly recommend you go there w/ loads of money. That Japanese restaurant is AWESOME. First of all. when we the elevator dropped us off a ninja jumped out and greeted us. He then lead us through this cave to our tatami room. PS: did i mention ninja's served us? Hahah the food was excellent and well worth the 471USD bill. (including a mandatory 20%-73$ tip) Well, actually i paid a lot more for my food because i certainly didn't eat that much nor did i drink any of the 64$ bottle of sake that everyone ordered... boo urns but seriously the food was eggsalent. especially dessert, but everyone knows i love dessert. hahah. SIGH i love that restaurant, everyone is so friendly and it is the only place were *you will see a spanish ninja* haha the manager was super friendly and he showed us magic tricks, which i love. siiiigh. We all got free shuriken keychains and i stole all the coasters. hahaha. sigh. maybe i should open up a ninja edmonton! HOHOHO. naaaw, i dont think i'd be able 2 find servers that friendly. hahaha. Oh, i remeber that day we took a cab home and cathy screamed because she thought our taxi driver was going 2 hit a pedstrian. Everybody yelled at her and said *CATHY, if the cab driver hits anyone its because YOU made him*. aaah it was quite funny....not 2 mention that henry got severly drunk that night.