Oh Poop

I'm saaaad, I went to my friends birthday party today and all her friends had boyfriends....and they look really happy and cuddly together.... booo urns. Soooo, i'm back in the mac, workin at the restaurant. I'll be here till the end of august at least doing the same ol same ol. I'm kinda creeped out mitch will see me cuz liek...yeah....its mitch.... I hope i dont have a summer fling again. Note to self, dont have a summer fling. But it was nice seeing the gang again. And i'm being honest this time. I think from last time i've changed alot so its all good. I'm not that quiet dupeable girl they used to know....or at least i dont look like one anymore. Hahah. but Beths boyfriend is really purdy... hahah i'm going to hell but totally, yeah. He listens to like EXACTLY the same music i listen too. hahah its cool. I am so lonely..... does anyone even read this? hahah. Soooo I seen sterling today, and hes like all beefed up, (and honestly its kinda creepy). And Kat's boyfriend is the same, and Kat's the same, and Beths' the same. The only ones who really changed i'd say are Sterling and Quinton. Though actually not really just that i used to never talk to quinton. He's pretty friendly so its all good. I woulda liked to have seen josh again cuz hes allways funny. I like talking 2 quinton hes easy to talk to. Drew really scares me cuz he looks really like....tight.... Beths bf on the other hand...hahahah jkjk. but he looks really nice, and (just based on my first looks judgment) i think me and him'd get along pretty well.... aside from all that sporty poker stuff.... but yeaaah. I assume thats the last that i'll see of them till next year. hahah. WELP i think thats all. I'm gonna go now.

Tra lalaaa

Last day of art class today.... le sigh. I actually really like this summer class, it was pretty fun. I'm bery sad that i wont get to see the purdy man anymore. Yeaaaah he gets really angry really easy but hes pretty pretty. Boo urns, i'm so jealous that he bought Christine so many drinks.... Poooh why'd christine have to tell me that. I wanted to go to but, like yeaah i didn't want to go by myself. Sooo i went and watched the Skeleton Key with Elaine today. It was pretty good i guess. And i've got a fucker of a sore throat. Poooh how come i dont have a boyfriend..... I think that the best place to meet a guy would be at work. No i dont mean dating a co worker cuz i think that'd be awkward. But like, if i was working and one of my customers hit on me, or waited for me after work. I think that'd be sweet. How come i dont attract anyone but creepy ppl. siiigh. Well Jess came out and is not safely back in fort mac. She said sounds of the underground was great and she met a new guy friend. Ah but i really should go to sleep, my eyes are slowly rolling 2 the back of my head.... aaah.... goood night

mmm....formaldehyde

I went 2 the anatomy lab today to draw cadaver parts...boy did i almost pass out.... haha i think i'm turning soft man...wut the hell is wrong with me. I didn't grow up getting power slammed and DDT'ed by my 2 brothers for nothing... erg arg. Does anyone like the feeling they get when the open their mail box and see letters addressed to them? I sure to. I bought like.... a crap load of stuff off ebay this past week just so i can get some stuff in the mail....*sigh* so sad....
har har, I'm such a loner in my art class, Everbody has a friend they know from somewhere else except me. Boo urns. huuur, so i was describing 2 my cousin the 3 guys in my art class and its funny, cuz they're like... opposites almost. One guy is like...kinda bulky and piercing-y w/ spiky hair, the other guy is tall and skinny and like....reminds me of a rugged model man, and the other guy is kinda short and tan and like a stunt bike-y guy. One of them thinks i'm stalking him i think. I've seen him 2 times in the past 3 days. First time i seen him while i was rounding a corner 2 go 2 work. And the 2nd time was during the bomb scare (yes i said bomb scare) at work on sunday. The sad thing is, he was in uniform so then its like *oh okay he works there its okay* But me being a hostess I dont get a uniform so i'm basically in normal clothes, sitting there watching...hahah.... daaaw. The bomb scare was kinda funny in a way. A customer demanded he get his change back and wouldn't leave the building till he got his change, another girl took like...a handfull of tempura and put it in her pocket, and didn't end up coming back. The other funny thing i thought was, there was this police man across the street and from my position it looked like he was carrying a cardboard box towards us and i was like *...uh....is that the bomb....if it is sholdnt he be taking it the other way.....* hahaha....but it was the caution tape thing...eh hehehe.....
welp, my cousin is coming out on monday....good gawd, finally someone to go out with. Knowing the luck i have i'll get non stop HW hahaha. k days is coming up too. i hope i remember 2 get a ticket thing for my cousin 2morrow or booooy will she be angry with me... hohoho....welp i think thats enough blabber for today. buh bye ah-vree-bah-day

Bye lil' devil

har thats the first time anyone has ever said that to me. hahah i feel so special. Soooo my life these past few weeks has been completely repetititve. With all my getting up and schooling and sleeping and working... i can plan ahead like 4 weeks in advance practically. i'm so lonely. boo hoo... This hot guy came in to eat today and he winked at me. ohhohoho. me like that. hahah oh my summer art class is going okay too. cept that i'm a big loner, but its still pretty good. theres 3 hot guys in there (cept cathy says they're all not hot) hahaha em.... my brother was a rebel today and stole 2 pairs of socks.. hahah. aaaaah. did i mention i'm lonely? hmm...well i seem 2 have forgotten what i was going to tell everybody..... there was a lot too....jesus jones. buuut i guess i'm gonna go sleep then....so sadly predictable. maybe tomorrow i will meet a pretty man :D yeaaaaaah

weird dreams

ho hum,
i've been having a lot of weird dreams recently. Last week, I dreamt i was a super villan. But it was pretty cool cuz i could fly, and everybody knows i love flying. I could also shoot like....bullets out of my fingers. I didn't plan on being a villian it was just that i kept on accidentally killing ppl. Like, the police were after me and i kept trying 2 fly away and they'd shoot at me and i'd dodge then like...natural reflex i'd shoot back and like they'd all get shot in the heads and stuff. And then the cops got angry and sent in their arnold swartzenegger of SWAT. and in came....emilio estavez....dont ask why. but he was in like total rambo gear and he tried to capture me but...i slipped through his fingers and eventually ran away from my family....and then i woke up...hahah it was cool cuz i could fly.
I just suddenly rememberd this dream, but ....me and a group of ppl got stranded on an island and it was like....gilligans island meets survivor. and....um i think the plane exploded or something and my friend fell to the sand and i ...flew...and was gonna go get him but the bad guys were near by so i uncontrollably flew myself backwards into the water. and then later on i found my friend and dragged him to our *secret* set up camp place that was nice and well ration stocked....then i dont remember the rest.
The dream i had today took me seriously by surprise cuz the night before i was looking at my friends grotesque book of diseases and i was scared i was going 2 dream of having like....everything. But anyways, this ones gonna be more detailed cuz i remember it more clearly....Sooo...i *think* i was either married to or had some kinda relationship with Justin (this guy i knew and kinda liked from highschool). And my *former* best friend Katherine and her long term BF Drew were there too. And we were in this room and then suddenly Justin like...i dont remember clearly but he like grabbed me and he had this pill in his hand and it was supposed to make me die. (Drew had one too). And obviously i was trying not to swallow the pill and like tears were coming out of my eyes cuz i couldn't believe Justin was doing this to me. But in the end he won and i swallowed the pill. And i started crying, and he held me and read me like....*the* most sweetest heart wrenching goodbye poem ever. And after that I didn't feel so bad about dying because ...iforget. So i like...snuggled into his lap and held onto him and closed my eyes. And then i *awoke* in this totally different room and Kat was there too (having just awoke from the death pill sleep). And Justin and Drew were no where to be seen, and when i asked Kat how Drew gave her her pill and what he said after she said *....idunno he just gave it to me and didn't do anything after* and then, i really awoke...hahah yeaaah the story was really rushed but after i woke up i felt really happy and sad. Hhaha i hope it doesnt mean i'm jealous. not to mention i haven't seen justin in like....2 years. hahah how bizarre

its a mad dash towards the finish line

no actually its a slow crawl. I feel like being very productive these past few weeks (however not productive as in house cleaning).... more as in making stuff. hmmm.. well i wanted to make (learn) to make sushi, and i did. and i also want to make dumplings, and mint mocha coffee drink, and finish my costume, and paint something, and plant a lot more stuff.... vroom vroom vrooom. buuuut alas i haven't. the afternoon hostess got fired by boss' wife yesterday. all the waitress and sushi chefs thought it was complete bullcrap cuz it wasn't even professional. uuugh. what else.... wellp it looks like i'll be staying out here till at least august.... yeaaah *le sigh* i wish i had a swimming pool....i think i'd go swimming ever day or something.... poooh. i think i'm gonna go to my piczo site and make one of those list things of things that i wanna do before i die. yeaaaaah. oh waht fun.
ps. haaaaappy fathers daaaaay o^-^o

whats new sports fans?

nothing really, cept the fact that i have a lot of new clothes and am short one pair of shoes....that dirty shoe stealing bastard. sooo my parents came in to town and spent the week out here, and my mom and i went shopping for clothes. and she spent 500$ on a hair cut....isn't that amazing? but also...SOME BASTARD STOLE MY SHOES.... that dirty son of a....i also dyed my hair today, i finally got the necessary goods to do it properly. so i'm a purple green head now.. hohoh. just like barney. hmm what else. oh my boss went out of town and so his wife is here looking out and BOY is she scary. the afternoon hostess got fired today. oy oy. but any hoo i'm gonna go sleep now....or actually i'll prolly go and finish up paper mario.. yahooo

I could have touched John Cena....

Never ceases to fail people. I corinna have THE most bad luck in the whole world. A while back ago i bought TWO sets of edmonton smackdown tickets, and i didn't know which ones would be the better seats. (row 8 seats 15&16 or row 11 seats 6&7). someone told me that 5&6 would be a lot closer to the ramp and i tried comfirming it with rexall place and ticketmaster, and they were about as helpfull as a tub of crap. So i took a random guess and decided 2 keep seats 6&7....i sold the other tix to this guy today with a red hat for 80$. I get to rexall palce today and there are like hordes of ppl trying to buy any type of tickets for like...100+ bucks and i was like...DAMMIT who told me no one would be here trying 2 buy last minute tixs????. and then i get into the areana and the lady seats us and we're like in the middle of nowhere practically. and like 20 mintues later BOOM red hat stands up in front of me and hes got like....THE best seat in the house. Right next to the ramp, in the corner on TV....i like sat down and cried almost. complete bullshit. So pissed off. ARG. what an unlucky person I am. i think i will now go and splurge money on expensive shoes....damn it

It'sa me MARIO!

har i lied i'm not mario. but i have been playing paper mario :) aaaah mario is so funny. Today was a day where if i were a meaner person i woulda knocked some teeth out. Customers who are asses deserve to eat food teethless i tell you. At work when its super busy, theres always that one dickface who refuses to take the table you offer them and instead request the single super dirty table in the far far corner. And when you want to leave, regardless of the fact that you are out of uniform purse in hand and sneakers on, everyone still waves you (not the waitress) down and requests you to refill their water, and when you refil their water they tell you to bring them napkins, and when you bring them napkins they tell you to bring them side plates. GAWD save some breath for the love of god say it all the first time....vreh. so yeah today was pretty shitty now that i think about it. but on the plus side i successfully made it to WEM and bought red bean popsicles :D yeaaaaah.hmm maybe i should eat one right now....wooo aaaah, so i booked off the next 3 days from work so i could go with my brother to the upcomming smackdown event on tuesday......yeaaah who likes john cena...hahaha. not to mention i can finally go shopping with out constantly worring about being late for work. have i told anyone lately that i've gona like shoe craving? it comes from my mom's genes i tell you. i have like....7 pairs of shoes i'm gunning down right now....sigh....i wish i were rich. HAHAHAHAH aaah ebay is fun. me and my friend are looking up jock straps on ebay. when your sad, it never ceased to fail. i wonder how much underwear models get paid....

aaaw-sum

no my loyal fans i havent disappeard off the face of the earth, i just took a extended leave of absense. I went back to my hometown of fort mac for mothers day and the rest of the week and it was funny cuz i seen like...20 classmates during the week. aaaaah. But aside from the boring week of work, i *earned* enough moolah from working to pay off summer school... oh boy hahaha. My daddy paid me in cash cuz i left before cheques were distributed so i was carrying around like 1000 bucks. AND THEN my mom gave me money, followed by gramma followed by my brother. so i was like asking to be mugged haha. I had 2 live by myself for 2 days and boooy do i hate it hahah so boring, and night time is creeeeepy. i like taped my eyes shut so they wouldn't play tricks on me. buuuut the main reason for this entry today is to comment on GREEN DAY! hohooo i went 2 their concert today and it was grood. yup yup. i actually managed to save enough oxygen to last the whole concert at the 2nd row. (not on top of a garbage can like sum 41) haha i was so pissed off, some guy decided to punch some other guy via my face and he like skimmed my jaw. and 3 guys were like *fuck man you hit her* haha i told my brothers i got hit in the face and lost a tooth haha. after THAT escapade a crowd surfer kicked me in the eye resulting in my contact popping out. so i had 2 see a half blurry half clear billie, tre and mike. then i got clonked on the head like ....8 times by butt's belonging to crowd surfers. haaah but it was good ahha greenday puts on good concerts. 2 chicks in front of me passed out and i smirked cuz i seen their eyes roll 2 the back of their heads....hahah im going 2 hell. but i thinmk i gotta go 2 sleep now before my brain compresses into my spine.

Realization

Okay, i think i've finally come to a realization over one thing. I'm not over Craig. i know this because of the simple fact that when i see the name craig i get floaty and my heart skips a beat. Whats especially sad is that I've never actually met him before. Although i do recall that i had like several opportunities to meet him but ironically something would happen on the exact day an hour or 2 before/during the meeting time....it makes me sad. Really really sad and I cant help but wonder what would have happened. I know theres like a 50-50 chance that it would have ended even worse off, but that way i wouldn't have to keep thinking about him anymore. just on with my life knowing that he was a real asshole and i'm better off. Now all i can do is make up the excuse and *hope* that he was an asshole which would explain the sudden disappearance. It makes me sad again. its been like 5 months since i last talked to him but even the last conversation seemed awkward. What would have happened if i met you that day? What would have happened if I hadn't had a boyfriend that time? Would you still be here by my side? It sucks not knowing. Craig is my favorite guy that i've liked before (even considering that I haven't met him before) mostly because hes so sweet but brutally honest at the same time....he knows how to make a girl feel good. And it saddens me. I think the real kicker for me that made me like him more than everyone else was that when i was going out with a boyfriend and craig didn't know, he flirted with me and then he asked me if i had a boyfriend (i hate mitch more because of this) and i told him yes cuz if i said no that would be cheating (DAMMIT). so i said yes i had a boyfriend. And i swear i could feel his depression even though were were like 400km's apart. I felt so sad that night, and nothing (even the fact that i had my own boyfriend) seemed to make it go away. And then, like a week later my ass of a beau broke up with me because he didn't htink long distance relationships would work (FUCK THAT SHIT he KNEW i had to leave at the end of the summer so why'd he FUCKING BOTHER) i was like brutally devestated and my brothers and cousin tried to drag my out of my bed and my cousin got me to dry my eyes and come on the computer where she then proceeded to called up Craig (at 3AM) and told him to come online. I dont know if she told him that i needed cheering up or whatnot but he came on line and did just that. At 4AM i stopped crying and was laughing again because he picked up right where he left off and i loved him for that because he made me happy for that hour. And that was the end. Pretty much after that night i never talked to him again....or at least the same Craig anyways. I can't possibly believe that I miss him this much. How can I possibly miss someone that I've never met before. I mean i dont even know his last name, even. It makes me sad because I can't even forget about him, every where i go i see signs with Dr. Craig's or Jenny Craig, or shit like that....my fucking ex's MIDDLE NAME was Craig. how....please somebody tell me HOW TO MAKE IT GO AWAY....(sigh). Could you at least come back online once and leave me a message or something? Tell me your married, Tell me your gay, Tell me something....anything so that i can move on....all i really wanted to know was what could have happened.

Sadness and Sorrow

It sucks being lonely you know. One of these days I hope to go to a psychiatrist and have them diagnose me with some time of accute mental disorder, then hopefully I'll make more sense. Cause seriously sometimes I think way to much for my own good. I think its just the Edmonton air, I never used to think this much in high school....or maybe its just growing up....I hate growing up. When i was 6 i didn't worry about not having a boyfriend, when i was 12 i didn't worry about not having a boyfriend, when i was 17 i didn't really worry about not having a boyfriend. Now that i'm 19 i'm worried about not having a boyfriend. When your single it just seems that the world likes rubbing it in your face, and couples come prancing around in your face holding hands, kissing and eating each others faces like theres no tomorrow. Another thing i hate is memories, iknow iknow i have a lot of good memories with friends....or at least i used to think so....not really anymore, I can't seem to make it a day without thinking of some stupid embarssing situation i've put myself in and when i start to think of something from the past i pinch myself and tell myself to think of something else. Guys leave terrible TERRIBLE impressions on me. I'm starting to think that all guys are assholes. There was only one guy i knew in elementary that i liked and i'm pretty sure that for some godforsaken reason he had liked me too....but....she thought that he was useless and woudln't even think of him as a chance. I'm sorry that I didn't stand up to her, and i really really regret never getting to know you. My life is so full of regrets, that i seriously wonder every single day how it would be different if I had done something different instead. Fate is always a couple days off. What would have happened between me and you if i did come over that night? would you have become more than just a memory, would this hole in my heart be gone....would the sound of your name no longer bring pain and hatred? I dont know, but i really wish you'd come back just for one day, where me and you could sort things out and perhaps bid our final goodbyes properly rather than your abrupt disappearnce from my life. Whats really really sad, i think is that you probably dont even remember me, whereas i had at one time fell for you because you treated me differently than everyone else and saw through my shell....or at least i thought you did. The last few times i spoke with you, you seemed like a completely different person. I guess i hate admiting it and dont think i can, but i dont think you really knew me at all. You're just a player and no matter how hard she defends you thats the word that i associate with you now. i have to forget about you.But at the same time one day, even if its after i die, i'd like to meet you. I'd give you the sad smile that i've developed and I'd tell you what you put me through. Would things have been different if i was prettier....perhaps skinnier? One thing i know, is that the friend that isnt one any more was both and her life? Picture perfect, and if it isn't you're sure putting on a good act. I miss being a kid. One of these days if I go to far I just plan on freaking out and have my family admit me to a mental institute....(even if i do end up faking it but at least i can be myself)

the viscious cycle continues

Look what your terrible backstabbing blog has resulted in me doing. Writing a terrible (not sure if its going to be backstabbing yet) blog about you. Cue flashback, yesterday (read the blog if you must) remember how I told you my friend made me feel like a complete idiot with that whole elbow pipe and *is it the hood stand part* how insulting is that. And not to mention thats totally not the only things she tells me that makes me feel bad. Like when i tell her i can't do soemthing cuz blah blah, shes like *um.... i don't know about you but i can do it just fine* well gee thanks for making me feel totally useless. UGH i'm getting so pissed off again, its like she doens't have the tenacity to think that shes not the only person whos got feelings. Like seriously when i read that very very first entry about me I got super sad and worried and was like man now what, its gonna be so awkward. but i guess i just pretended like i didn't read it and everyting was okay, i just tried to be more like...i dunno careful with my words. BUT SERIOUSLY how am i supposed to be fucking careful when you *basically* tell me that i'm a bimbo. I seriously dont think you think about your words and how much of a hypocrite you are. If i hurt your feelings with harsh words i'm sorry, but it certainly doens't give you the right to make me feel like an invalid. And I think the MAIN reason why this caused a big kuffufin was because I found the blog in the first place. I would CERTAINLY HOPE that if your gonna write bad blogs about one of your best friends that you yourself said had once considered family, it SHOULD NOT be a direct link on your main homepage that is posted on your msn profile that everyone has access too. I know this blog of mine really isnt' any better but at least its not easily accessible unless you have really good luck surfing blogs or i friggen give you the link. Ugh, i have such a terrible life i think sometimes. Like basically my 2 very best high school friends who i've known for 12 and 9 years, make me feel useless half the time. Such a bad relationship. but well yeah i'm ging to go now, and eat or something cuz all that crying and punching walls (weakly as *someone* tells me) has made me really nungry.

some one just shoot me

ug, tis been a super super long time...like 2 weeks...hahaha. my god today was a terribly looooong day. i went in to work 2 hours early to let the other hostess take the rest of the day off to study (which i also had to do also) and i get off at 10 (supposed to) and every single saturday, right at 10'oclock (never ceases to fail) i get bombarded w/ a million take outs and never end up leaving till like 10 30-10 45. Whats even worse is I ring it under the other girl's name cuz i figure i'll leave before they come....nope...wrong. and those last few tables always give a tip... boo hoo.. haha but its okay my waitress gives me the tip anyways cuz i end up packing it and getting soup...hoho...well okay that was work. i got home at like 10 45 and my tbone aunt has called and left like 3 messages telling me or my brother to go and pick up some rice and leftovers. n i was like *but but...its like 11 and its late and i dont have a car anymore* and she was like *hmmm....hmmmm.....hmmmmmmm....i know, send your brother over, tell him to take the bus* n i was like...*but...but* so i got suckered in, and then i was like (lightbulb) i know we'll take the spare emergency car keys and take the car and stop a block away from her place and then walk 2 get the food, cuz hell I aint waiting who knows how long for a bus to come at 12AM on a saturday night. so we got the key and went 2 start up the car....BUT IT WOULDN'T START n i was like....omg oh myyy god not my car brothers gonna kill me. so we sat in the car a bit and tried to see if we left any lights on or anything, but everything was off. so i was like shit man wtf. arg so i called AMA and they were like we'll be there in ~90 minutes. so i was like okay thanx.....DAMNIT THE FOOD. so i like brain hemmoraged cuz i thought so hard. i gave AMA my cell number so they'd call b4 they got here so i was debating who should keep the phone. but in the end i gave it to my brother who went to take the bus and get the food so he could call and stuff if anything happened and he could call the house phone when AMA finally called. so i swear that 90 minutes was like the longest time of my life. my brother called like 4 times to check what bus to take, got the food, coming home now. and FINALLY the AMA guy called and i waited downstairs for like 10 mintues....nada. so i came back up stairs to call brother and see and still ntohing. Finally i see the flashing yellow lights....long story short, the man fixed the car...big sigh of relief. What was really weird (and scary) was that the car was like....not as we remember leaving it. first of all the car tarp was off (and in the trunk), battery was dead (duh main story here but how is the question) and finally, when i popped the hood for the guy this like...arm sized elbow shaped black plastic pipe was like....lying underneath the hood right in the middle on top of the engine. and the guy like picked it up and looked at me weird, n i was like...uh...i dunno not mine....so weird....but yeah that was the end. oh no wait one more thing. so after the big kuffufin was over i told my friend what happened and about that elbow pipe thing, and the first thing she said was *was it the hood stand*. n i was like already pissed off and when i seen that i like almost punched the screen. COME ON i'm not fricken stupid here, i mean i'm not an automotives person but i can tell what the stand looks like. GAWD.... i mean seriously, sometimes i wonder. This is the same friend that had that wrote that blog about me saying how sometimes my words to her were harsh and stuff. How much of a hypocrite are you if you do the same to me. Seriously sometimes the questions and answers she gives me are a serious insult to my intelligence. Yes i know i'm a bimbo sometimes but thats when I act like it. guh.... so angry....and hot...and tired...and head achey....vreh....oh and btw my food was cold.... oh one more thing, after i finally settled down it finally dawned on me how much it seems like i've grown up. Like i feel really immature sometimes and scared to do things on my own, but I think maybe today I proved to myself that I can take charge and take care of things. Cuz like in the car, i didn't even really stop to think i just popped open the glove compartment and called AMA. and i thought a pretty smart response to the big cell phone dilemna and it was a good call. and ....so yeah hahah i'm really proud of myself today cuz i handled it pretty well...haha yay.....this calls for a cookie...mmmm

ARG FUCK ME

AAAARGH, SERIOUSLY WHAT IS WRONG WITH PEOPLE THESE DAYS. My god. Come on world, how come you gotta be so mean to me. First off all my *long weekends* are fucking useless ESPECIALLY if i gotta work them all. Damn you fucking Goldie, took all the days off and gave me all her shifts till she gets mother fucking back from her nice holiday. I can't even fucking go shopping for fucks sake cuz i got THE shittiest shifts ever. ARG. AND THEN my mofo stupid DICK SHIT of a brother starts like flipping out on me....well ACTUALLY he was flipping on out my older brother who's out here in edmonton with me. Basically calling him useless and a mooch. n he was complaining that we use his car too much and that we take it on joy rides. FOR THE LOVE OF FUCKING GOD i'm fucking sorry if we need food to live and if that is an inconvenience to you. So then he tells me that its not fair taht he has to pay for tune ups and insurance and all that crap. n i'm like FUCK YOU ASSHOLE man its your OWN fault for leaving the car out here and you staying up in fort mac molting. You could come back if you wanted to but nooo stay it is. and BULLSHIT on that whole paying the insurance part, i mean you paid for it either way. If we didn't drive your fucking car it'd be out here doing fuck shit anyways. So he wants us to send him up his car keys, which is fine by me because i've managed on my own w/o a car this long i'm sure i can again. A car is a luxury sure, and its nice to have around but i dont fucking need it. call me an asshole i seriously dont give 2 shits right now. But 2 can play this game. Personally i'd consider myself to be the most favored child of us 3, mostly cuz i'm the youngest, the only girl (evil snicker) the *happiest* and maybe the most independant. So my parents probably secretly worry about me the most and when i have a problem they really worry. So being out here *on my own* must give them nightmares. But they breath a sigh of relief knowing that i have a nice reliable car to help me travel halfway across town to retrieve our weekly rations (which i also pay for). I'd love to see the glares they give Terence (who is living w/ them btw) when i send them the keys back w/ a nice loving note saying *Terence's car keys, because he doesn't want us to drive his car anymore* Thats waht you get for being such a greedy bastard. Send your hate mail I dont care. If i was up in rich city making shit loads of money I wouldn't care if my brothers drove my car around once a week to get food. Seriously if he honestly wants to leave fort mcmurray i dont see why he doesn't. I know the restaurant is having some ridiculously stupid family bickerings but if he left, i'm sure they'd friggen force those stupid differences aside and make up. If not just close the damn restaurant down, from what i hear everyones sick and tired of it anyways. My rant for the day, sincerely Corinna-pissed off-Chow

you know you're bored when....

you go on ebay and look up used underwear....*le sigh*. hahah who knew that KitKat had so many flavors?? gaawd i want to buy all the flavors i see just so i can start a collection or something. I was on ebay and i seen strawberry,cappachino, white lemon yogurt, green tea, orange, blood orange, friggen christmas pudding...and they all come in pretty colors.... siiiigh. welp today was an interesting day. I woke up earlier than usual and went *grocery* shopping w/ my brother, only we didnt make it and went 2 walmart and toys r us instead. haha i bought a pair of shoes, and then some easter chocolate for my friends. Painting class was okay today, we're doing reproduction today and i WAS gonna do johannes vermeer's *girl w/ a pearl earring* but the other girl did n i was like, aaaah i dont want 2 compete. So even though i really really really liked that one, i sighed and went with my 2nd choice of jan van eyke's *man w/ a red turban* the colors arent as vivid...wut the heck man w/ the exception of red there are like no colors...haha but i guess its okay. that turban will take me like the whole time i bet, but thats okay, as ppl tell me i seem to have a knack for painting cloth. Em what else, oh i know, right after i left the studio i seen the sushi chef from work outside waiting for a bus...which sushi chef?? shaaadup you know who. hahah....maan i'm craving junk food. mcDAMMIT i shoulda brought my painting home, i was actually in a pretty good mood considering a stayed liek an hour more. hah

Moo

aaah, nothing like slaving 2 hours in the morning to get your brother tickets to a event for his birthday only to be told later by him that he doesn't want them. *siiigh*. well today i just feel like rambling on about some useless stuff, nothing really to rant and rave about....except that my wisdom teeth have decided to start resurfacing at the same time. So yes my jaw does feel like its being pried apart. *ow* At work today i flicked ginger in my eye. it burnt. Its ironicly funny i think how i had originally gotten a job to work the afternoons so that i wouldn't be wasting them away. but magically somehow i no longer work the afternoons and instead work the busiest evenings. Its crazy i tell ya..OOH OOH especially yesterday. these damn assholes came in frolicking around like they owned the place. i felt so bad for the waitress who served them. Poor girl. welp. I think i might be alergic to surgical steel. I changed my barbells a week or 2 ago and like my tongue started to hurt again, so i put back in the original piercing one and it went back to normal. DAAAMIT. ps, who knew that rice absorbed flavors? i sure as hell didn't. Yesterday i had 2 pieces of leftover sushi so i put it in a container along w/ the left over wasabi and ginger and plopped it into the fridge. Just now i took it out and ate it and it tasted like someone smeared wasabi all over the sushi, i almost cried cuz it was so hot. haha but i didn't. PS, i'm a butch, haha at work all the girl's always ask for help moving the big tables. When i do it i'm like *RAAAAGH HULK OUT*n i ram that table to wehre it belongs....haha yeah im a pretty sad version of a girl. hahah

AAAAAAARGH

aaaaarg, you have absolutely no idea how much rage i am in right now....Not to mention its 10 friggen AM, i mean who the hell is up at 10AM??? ME thats who. ARG.
yaaaah, so i went and did stuff just now for 45 mintues, and i'm still pretty angry. Reason being, my 2nd brother's 24th birthday is coming up and him being an avid wrestling fan and all i decided to invest in some wrestling tickets for the upcoming smackdown event coming to Edmonton. and so i like set my alarm clock thusday morning at 9AM so i could wake up and mass horde some good seats. doo dee dooo 9am finally rolls around and low and behold what do i discover....i got up on the fruckin' wrong day. VREH. so blah blah wutever. Saturday morning finally rolls around and i sit w/ like, my timer and jolt cola on hand ready to do some ass fast typing and clicking. 9AM...BAM i'm like click drag point click *enter* FLOOR SEATING 3RD ROW NORTH SECTION YEAAAAAAAAAAAH!!!! i'm like WHOO HOOO NO NOSEBLEED SECTION!!!! so i like did a little dance and opened up a 2nd window 2 maybe look for some better tix (hey i cant help it im chinese) doo doo, naaw i'll just leave it, so i start like filling in my addy and credit card info and push *enter* only to be blessed w/ this ungodly sight *We're sorry, but your 1 minute has expired and the tickets you were holding have been given up* i did my whide eyed look and went 2 look for them again, my new tickets? row 14 East.... AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAH, i seriously like went into shock i think. i guess i'll end this one short and sweet. being chinese and all i ended up looking around for some more and got some row 11east ones....but then after i paid i found some row 8east ones.... and me being like dumb and splurge of the moment i bought those too.... so yeaah....anyone wanna buy some SMACKDOWN tickets? aaaah well, i'll use the magic of ebay and hopefully luck will befall this hopeless schmuck, if not.... looks like i'll have 2 be going 2 smackdown

p-p-pingu-pingu

Who loves pingu? i sure do. I remember one time i watched pingu and his bed grew legs and started walking towards a giant seal. it was funny. Welp, anyways, gonna be a short post today. My aunt and aunts went 2 mirama today and i had to work...sooo they brought me back left overs.... mmm good ol' oily peking duck. Well, i'm not so full of anger and hot headed today so i wont be ranting that much....except for one thing. *siiiigh* I think i'm going to be doomed to live a life forever single. Why do I say that? well because all the guys that i like either A) are assholes, B) have girlfriends, or C) suddenly decide they are gay.... i'm serious about that last one btw. I like this one guy for like a super long time, and then i suddenly found out that he was bi. weeeell i guess bisexual isn't as bad as gay, because it still means he's into girls....but the way i see it, hell if i was a guy i'd go for a guy rather than an ugly girl who could be mistooken for a guy.... yes ladies and gentlemen, i am butch, and i used to be able to be mistooken for a dude. i'm not so man-ly now, but i'm still pretty butch i think....hey its what happens when you grow up w/ 2 older brothers whose favorite sports are hockey and wrestling. haha. well gonna go 2 sleep now, my stomache is all gurgly from some weird food or soemthing

STUPID SHIT HEAD

OKAY, i'm so FUCKING pissed off right now that i could fucking break something. I dont care if you read this or not anymore you fucker, cuz its about time someone told you. STOP THINKING OF ONLY YOURSELF. GAWD. So i told my cousin today that i was planning on coming back home during the spring cuz i dont have classes, and i can make a lot more money up in fort mac than i can in edmonton, cuz A) i get paid more by the hour, and B) i get a lot more hours. And being a university student i need the money. and she goes *Yeah, you need MY money*??? uh okay. so i was like...*riight, i'm taking over my mom's shifts dude, she needs the time off, and even if she has to work its not like you guys dont need the help* every day i hear someone complain of how mofo busy it is or something. and its like it just wont sink in her MOFO DENSE HEAD. GAWD I'M NOT TAKING AWAY HER FUCKING SHIFTS. i'm working my FRICKEN moms shifts so she can take some FUCKING TIME OFF. NOT TO MENTION, I highly doubt shes gonna skip class so she can work in the morning.... AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAARGH MY FUCKING GOD, i think i fucking broke something punching all that shit. stupid shit. so yeah i hope everyone in etown enjoys my company for the rest of the year cuz i'm not going anywehre for awhile. friggen JESUS. i'm going to go and paint soemthing now.