Do you know what a mental illness feels like.

A mental illness is waking up and going to work and school every day and feeling fine. Smiling and talking to your classmates and co-workers, and engaging with people. A mental illness is that and also going home and lying in bed for the rest of the day wondering Why no one chooses me. A mental illness is telling yourself you are okay and then crying yourself to sleep at night. A mental illness is wishing people understood you and feeling like a million knives stabbing you when they don't. It is feeling like you are going to be okay in the morning and then praying your hardest that you can die soon when it's night time. It's wanting to die for yourself, but staying alive because it would make others sad.

It's a battle with yourself that only you can understand and losing is easier than winning.